I was doing so well on my meds and now ive gone haywire

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Im so over it all, the struggle is real. I keep comparing myself to blind people saying they have it bad and worse than me but i cant shake that though. I feel like a fake and im depressed. my meds were really working well now ive had this hicup i feel like ive got to start again from square one, I am in a bad space.

You people are all nice and comforting but the reality is ive ■■■■■■ up. something is gone wrong i feel guilty for wanting to die cause of the hurt it will cause my mom. but its so hard.

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Do not regret, rest and you will be better, what do you take beside meds?

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i take nothing but my meds from my doctor i dont do supplements.

i am so down

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Cigs, tea, coffee, nothing?

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i drink coffee sometimes.

i dont smoke.

what about you?

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I have used many herbal drugs beside my meds and they helped me alot, my cognition is mainly back, I used to drink many glasses of tea and coffee a day that is lower now, I smoke cigarettes alot, I have a short list of psychoactive herbs I used and am preparing a long list of them too,

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When this happens the best thing is to tell your doctor. They may want adjust your lexapro. Keep fighting @anon20318121.

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You can get this past this @anon20318121. You da man.

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Hold on to the guilt of leaving your mom. It will keep you going until you can get a med adjustment.

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I’ve been fighting since September. But I did feel like I was going haywire.

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Our meds poop out on us at times. I’m on a high dose of Abilfy and Lamotragine for some time now. About four months ago everything has gone haywire in my head as well.

For the first time I was prescribed a benzo.
I took it morning and night for the first month and it pulled me out of psychosis real fast.

Now I’m taking it as needed only.

I don’t know if you have ever tried a benzo in your meds regimen but if not maybe you should speak to your pdoc about the possibility.

Strongs @anon20318121. I’m rooting for you.

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There’s nothing you can do it takes time but you have to just get through it

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At different times my life seemed impossible too. Sometimes I choose to refuse meds because they didn’t seem to help or that the side-effects weren’t worth the benefits. It’s good you don’t have any substance abuse problems and I applaud you for not smoking. But please don’t make the mistake of giving up or making attempts to hurt yourself.
It will get easier. Your life will improve. It may take time and realistically, you will have to continue working hard to do the things that seem so easy for the people who aren’t afflicted with the same illness.
You are young and there are probably many positive things in your future that will help you rise above all the ■■■■■■■■. Just don’t give up and please give yourself a chance at fighting for the things that you feel are important. You are stronger than your illness.

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Well said eight. 151515151515

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