Surprised myself. I walked three miles today

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Today I got up early and drove to my sisters house and then we drove to a park she liked. My other sister came too and my sisters friend who I first met 38 years ago when I was newly diagnosed. She’s pretty neat and she likes me.

We went to the park to walk and talk and a bunch of other people were also out for walks and some of them gave me friendly glances which I returned. It was beautiful weather today, not too hot, not too cold.

Afterwards the intention was to go out for breakfast but I was tired so I begged out of it and they went out themselves. We found a restaurant and I just stayed in the car with my sisters dog. But I got a little antsy just sitting there and I spotted a liquor store so I walked over to buy me something to drink. It was early in the morning and this little shopping center was not that crowded. I brought my sisters dog Annie with me.

There was a really cute young woman standing out front and we exchanged pleasantries and it turns out she not only worked there but she owned it. I asked if I could bring Annie in and she said it was OK.

I got up to the counter with a soda and the women started talking to me. I was doing fine until I started overthinking everything and I thought I was not supposed to be talking especially to a pretty women. But instead of reverting to my old self-conscious self and stopping talking the thought flashed through my head, “Wait a minute, I’m not doing anything wrong. All I’m doing is talking and she wants me to talk.”

So I smiled and kept talking. This little trick works for me. Why second-guess myself in the middle of a conversation when nothing is going on? People are just friendly and like to talk and in a way, they want to help you talk. People just want to get along and we’re all just human and we are social animals.

I don’t have to justify talking, it is what it is. I don’t have to make excuses for talking or I don’t have to rationalize it or shoot myself down Life is hard for everybody and it’s those little moments of being open and friendly that grease the wheels of society and make it run smoothly. But yeah, I walked three miles today, I got tired at first but then I got my second wind and it became easier to walk. But I got home an hour ago and now a nap sounds good.

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That’s a great story. I heard this song recently and it reminded me of you (just because you’re in L.A. )

Here’s the video for it but it might be a bit triggering for some

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Not bad. But I only lived in L.A. from the ages of about 6-9. Now I live relatively close to San Francisco.

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Aw man ! I thought you lived in L.A. Sorry !

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sounds like a neat little adventure and i think you handled it well, i use to worry about what people thought of me bc i was 30 and friends with 18yr old girls at college,

one girl thought i was a peado and another told me to grow up and act my age, but i said to myself why should i let these negative people get in the way of my friendships :slight_smile: we are all human after all.

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