Same d ■■■■ over and over again talking to them its all a lie.
I’m so sorry you are going though this! When I have this problem, I try to remind myself that I am the only mother that my kids will ever have regardless of how worthless I feel at the moment. I hope this helps 
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@tera I’m sorry you’re experiencing this rough patch with these kinds of thoughts flashing up in your mind. It is the depression that is making you feel this way. You are a wonderful person who is valued by so many more people than your immediate family. You’ve helped countless people no here with your comforting and sage advice. Allow those awful thoughts to pass through your mind, but do not follow them into an abyss of sadness. They are lies about you. Your heart is made of gold 
and has the power to resist their divisiveness.
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Can you confide in your husband? You might need to lean on him during this time. He is your husband after all. Are you involved with any mental health professionals? You might get help there. I know how hard it can be to defeat those negative feelings about yourself. We’re here to listen if you need our help.
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@Bittercat that’s awesome friend. I’m just listening to them trying to keep my sanity and not feel so alone in it. Thank you.
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U have a lot of well wisher tera…forum member have flooded here to wish u all the best…take care and never panic…lifes beautiful…
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No waves of feeling suicidal so far this morning, maybe it has passed already. I can guarantee we’re on high alert over here for awhile though. There’s just been too many times for us to let our guard down, I did have a couple stressors and a meds change that precipitated this episode. One of which is being sick with a cold. nothing I could do about that, We’ll see.
Thanks for all your sympathy
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so are you, and I love you too. I’m hoping I’ll be sane again in a week or so.
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Same. Struggling today as well.
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@Bittercat it’s quite a weight to bear. I hope you feel better really soon. Do you have someone with you? I can sit with you awhile
Good timing. I’m in a house full of people with no one to talk to… how are things for you today?
I’m already doing much better. I don’t have those waves of emotion hitting me anymore. That was really abrupt, I’ve never had a med hit me like that before that I can remember right now. Whats going on with you?
Meds tend to F me up pretty badly too. Life, but especially school, is becoming too difficult for me as my symptoms progress and it’s putting me in a really bad place. That in addition to the crumbling of my life outside of my classes. You know just the typical life falling apart scenario.
what is falling apart?
School. Work. Relationship. My house, in a quite literal sense. Social life. Physical health. The one thing I need to fall apart (my symptoms) are only getting stronger. Literally not one aspect of my life is not suffering because of this. I’ll get over it eventually though. I’m in a weird limbo where I don’t know where this illness will take me so ofcourse I’m not feeling too great about it.
sounds like you’re getting hit from all sides at the same time, hard to keep going
Yeah that’s about right. Thanks for being there for me💜
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