This week has been an especially hard week on me. Due to the severe weather that we are having here in Michigan one of my apartment neighbors had his pipes bust and flood the apartment. I began to be worried that it would happen to me and I would have no place to go. Two days later the boiler that heats our apartment building went out and I woke up to an apartment that was below 58 degrees the thermostat doesn’t go any lower. That day I went to the tdoc for therapy and missed my bus for the ride home and they had no way to come get me later and told me to walk. That’s walking eight miles in -25 to-35 windchill. Fortunately for me my tdoc was taking his lunch and agreed to take me home. I was frightened to be that close to a man for a twenty minute ride in the car. Since then the voices have come back loudly. I am seeing the monster who looks like a red devil. I can’t sleep, throw up all the food I eat. Ativan is helping calm me down some but I have the feeling of impending doom. They are redoing the laundry mat in then building so I can’t wash my. Clothes and I am running out of clean clothes t o wear. Heat came on for my side of the building last night. Kept the apartment a little hotter than usual -afraid of pipes bursting still. Slept three hours, not shaking like a leaf. Took my Invega this morning and a Ativan even though the pdoc wants me to wean myself off of them. We are supposed to get three to four inches of snow today. Will be spending the weekend and Monday in the apartment. Now I am afraid to leave. Afraid to get left. Don’t want to get left behind again. Don’t have a car. Have to rely on bus. First time in almost a year that I have been riding the bus that I was left behind. Called cab company it would cost $45.78 plus tip to take an unplanned cab from doctor to apartment. Guess I could make sure that I have that kind of money on me in case it ever happens again. Still fighting to get Social Security disability. Going through last appeal with Washington D.C. If this fails will have to start all over again. I am diagnosed Schizoaffective depressive type with Major Depression with psychotic features and PTSD. Reaching out for some advise to help me get back to calm. Did buy renter’s insurance I case something happens I will be taken care of. Symptoms had been under control. It had been seven months since I saw the monster. Three weeks for the voices. Symptoms brought on by stress. Dad died Dec. 22. Sister living with him because he had Alzhiemers is an alcoholic. Has been drunk most of the time since he’s been gone. She lives in his house three hours away. Can’t stay there, has five dogs and a cat. Animals had destroyed house. she hasn’t had a job in six years. Was fired from a twenty year job because was found drunk on the job. (Was City Fire Marshall). She can’t stay with me in my one bedroom apartment, I can’t support her. Has to go live with my sister at the Michigan Ohio state line an hour away. She stresses me out. Calls me drunk and cries on the phone. Daughter talked to me because she needed two hundred dollars to get a new battery for her car because the other one died in the cold. Now that she has the money is too busy to talk to me. All I have to talk to is my tdoc and you guys online. Please talk to me.
That’s a good idea but it doesn’t work well for sheets. I do have one of those stands and it has my socks and underwear on it that I did last night.
Thanks for the idea I don’t have string but I do have yarn I’ll give that a try!
Are you able to communicate with the landlord your priorities? For example, in case something happens to your apartment or the building and an emergency occurs, other temporary arrangements can be made?
Are you able to communicate with any agency that may offer temporary relocation services to you in case of an emergency? For instance, nursing homes and assisted living centers require another location to transfer folks to in case of emergencies. These places can be churches or stadiums, etc. You might check around to see if such places might offer similar services to you in such a manner whereas you will have privacy and quiet.
Hope you make some kind of arrangements that work for you.
Some type of policy that serves the whole mental disorder population when emergencies occurs is needed. For instance, motel, hotel or bed and breakfast services would come in handy when these types of emergencies occur.
it only takes a little bit to throw me off kilter. That’s why I got the renter’s insurance it will provide for me 2000 for a hotel to stay in until my place is liveable or other arrangements for a new place can be made.
That’s the best!