I can’t believe how sick and delusional I am. Like I thought I was different people in past lives and other dimensions or parallel universes. Like how delusional and stupid and grandiose can I get? I’m pretty sure I experienced trauma several times including in past lives, but I never figured out why, really. I mean even if I did do stuff, it would have been in a different reality or past life.
Like I believed I worked on UFOs, helped create bitcoin, was a time traveler, been to different parallel earths, was a super genius, was German in a past life, Vampire, know the cure for schizophrenia, was famous, was rich, and escaped and helped build the simulation (or a simulation), hate the sims, want to be real, suffered tremendous loss, was a victim, was a scientist, writer, psychic, was in the Illuminati, etc.
I know there’s no evidence, but I still get paranoid. I know I am delusional and ■■■■. I just wonder and think why can’t the government figure out who Satoshi is? With all their power and tech and ■■■■, and even these genius billionaires and programmers cannot figure it out…unless it wasn’t a single person or group, but a government project. I often think aliens, time travel, matrix theory, etc. was involved. I feel like it could have been inserted from a parallel universe (mandela effect) or our reality could be constantly edited and manipulated with. Not sure how. But I think something is going on like we live in a computer program in a lower dimensional reality being controlled by superior beings in a higher dimension.
It’s baffling. Who will I be next? Will I have another delusion about being someone else? Obviously, it’s false and not true. I just think it’s stupid and I am gathering and gaining insight into my condition.
It’s just stupid. Willl I be spider man or batman or super man next? lol
I think of Voice of God technology (with time travel) so the people in the future can reverse the tech and send signals back in time. Probably not real yet – or maybe it is. I think of Valis. Basically Voice of God tech is technology to insert voices into people’s heads. It’s sick.
I’m dirt poor, but I think what if I’m this super famous smart guy that no one knows about? I know it’s not real, but why do I have these thoughts? Narcissism and grandiose beliefs? Do I have a inferiority complex lol? I have thousands or honestly hundreds of different delusions or false memories.
I get memories of past lives which I think are from stupid energy drinks and are causing psychosis. A lot of smart, genius type people think they created bitcoin or know who he is. I know it’s not me and I’ll never get any money. I just think it’s funny that I think it can be hacked with quantum computers, it will rise in price and then drop in the future eventually, and I don’t like or support it but I know about it and have interest in it. I don’t own any bitcoins lol.
I feel like I had a quantum computer before given to me by space aliens in a past life and even something more powerful like the Matrix.
I worry a lot and I’m scared a lot because of these beliefs and delusions.
I go to different realities a lot. I feel like I know a lot like stuff no one cares about or knows about.
My thoughts and delusions are so complicated it goes off the deep end of the deep end lol. There’s no way I can cover everything in a post or on this forum.
It’s so bizarre and unreal and surreal.
Why do I think I am different people? Do I have a personal identity disorder or identity crisis? Dissociate amnesia?
I don’t know. This is just random crap I’m posting.