Does anyone feel like being stuck in your life? Like you can’t move forward, you cannot change anything, and it lasts for too long.
I’m afraid I lost too much time. I’m completely out of work routine, of some sort of normal life…
Where to go and whom to speak and how to ask for help?
I’m complete waste of atoms.
I wish someone could pull me out of this quicksand, of this mud because if I try I only go deeper down.
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I feel you honey. I feel like I can’t live on this medication, but also can’t live without. I tried so many and my docs are sick of me.
I don’t attempt to look for work because I’m tortured with anxiety. The last job I had was at a pizza place and I couldn’t keep up with them.
Im just waiting for the world to end or have a heart attack.
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I thought to start praying but I can’t even do that.
I mean, I know people who found their peace in spiritual, in faith, and I really need some kind of resort… Something that gives a hope you know.
I’m sorry @samp. You are so kind and sweet and definitely don’t deserve to suffer.
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My best friend is physically handicapped and crawls out his bed in the morning.
He found peace in Christianity.
If I also had a physical handicap on top of this ■■■■. Omg I would be toast! Just be greatful we can still move.
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I’m sorry you are feeling this way. I once read that no single moment by itself is unbearable, so you just have to try to get through each moment and stack them on top of each other, moment by moment, and you’ll be able to make it. I hope you feel better.
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Sara you are still young… you’ve got your whole life ahead of you and there is always a lot that can be done. Saving whatever money you can is one of them.
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Well according to my crazy ass, that’ll be this September.
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I’m ready to go to heaven! I probably shouldn’t say that.
I have felt like this too. Stuck in the mud.
You aren’t a complete waste of atoms though I can assure you of that.
I don’t have any advice I just hope this passes soon for you, it is a horrible feeling.
Yeah man, thats the horrible truth that nobody can help me except myself.
Still I wish someone to hug me and tell me its going to be OK…like in a movies…
I just watched Beautiful Mind on TV and cried my eyes out.
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That made me smile. 
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Hugs 
1515151515
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Hugs back. 
At least I feel a little more human when I have a chance to talk to someone
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I guess that is one of the many great points about this site. Being able to talk to people who can relate quite easily to what you are going through.
I really hope this passes for you soon.
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I may present a highly-functioning young man today, but whoa is that the tip of the iceberg.
Moving into a new town, going to a sushi bar and experiencing hallucinations of the people, everyone, people in the restaurant serving me for pay and people on the street doing their friday evening just all talking about me, seems too real for my comfort.
I escape in my work. I was busy hoarding articles from webofscience.org or whatever the database is called before I stopped to go do my weekend eating-out routine. ■■■■ that I will not go alone again, or wait, no, I can go but how bout the Subway down the street, not the ■■■■■■■ restaurant with too many variables and too much wasabi and 20 dollars gone for one heart-healthy meal nah ■■■■ it I want a footlong philly on friday evenings for like 5$ like damn son.
I am known for meeting challenges with intensity because I am one of those who suffers; I am in pain. I was trained to channel pain into aggression and by age 18 I was a pro at it. Well, I am still a pro at it, I just don’t hurt people or scare people for a career. I learn things and then share them, and I have also made my own science in research. I do the steps it takes to get all that done with extreme intensity.
For example, I collected about 50 of the best peer-reviewed, most heavily cited and most influential articles in evolutionary psychology because I find it interesting and I think like Darwin did in some ways, especially in his Asperger’s ways. Point is, I just signed up for a 100 page dissertation, and I am gonna do it on something I find intuitive and also interesting in order to get it done more effectively and efficiently. All of this studying and ordering books to read and outline months before school even starts is energetic. The energy is from aggression. The aggression is from pain.
I found a way to make a new life for myself through academia, and I must say…I am a case of Freud being right. I just displayed classic and awesome sublimation, a great example of one of his defense mechanisms, along with intellectualization, the second best one (most adaptive and healthy) after that. Healthy and adaptive and I still suffer hallucinations and delusions, even on multiple tranquilizers and a beta-blocker.
Pride. I take pride in the pain.
Love. I love that I might be accredited to speak for us one day if I keep it up.
Pain. This ■■■■■■■ hurts.
Loss. I lose some of the pain when I fight back with defense mechanisms, and I lose some of my battles here and there.
Acceptance. I accept it and have my ways of coping and I am accepted by some, like this community, which I am grateful to others for. I often wonder what the world would be like if everyone was like me, and it makes me think that I should be grateful for people tolerating some of my behaviors, especially my past ones.
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I’ve kind of felt that way recently however it is important to never give up. You are not a waste of atoms and if I saw you in quicksand I would throw out a branch or some rope and attempt to pull you out.
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You gotta take a risk and try something to shake up your life and break out of this plateau. Are there mental health clubhouses near you? How about a support group? How about taking a small step and taking one class at a college? Join a hiking club. Do something new for fun. There’s no law against having a little fun at something you like even if your life isn’t going how you would like it to. Good luck Sarad
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I very much felt the same way when I was your age - like I was a “complete waste of atoms”. I don’t feel that so much now. Just remember you can always turn things around. You can do more good than you think. I don’t see your life as being in vain.
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