i’d love to be a chef
i just don’t even think i can get through the training
just really feeling demoralised
i know i’m not the only one who won’t get to do what they wanted with their life, i just always hoped so much and have a strong work ethic and achievement drive, successful family and high expectations and even privilege
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I was fortunate that I did not develop sz until late in life. I got a lot of working done in my lifetime. About 25 years. I don’t know how old you are, but if you really want to do it, I suggest giving it a shot anyway. Worst case, it doesn’t work out.
I used to have high drive and a good work ethic as well. I’m a bit lazy an unmotivated these days to be honest. Making an effort to exercise and increase my energy, though.
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i appreciate your reply. im 47 i’ve tried so many things and ended up in hospital every time i tried anything
im older now started schizophrenia age 17
and haven’t tried anything seriously for a long time
been stable and married for ages
i have 2 dreams one to be a retreat chef in yoga retreats and such and one to work in a soup kitchen which brings up a trauma response from my childhood just thinking about it because a homeless man broke into our house and raped my mum violently with my 3 year old sister there and f’d up my entire family even 40 years later
sorry i always reply to the thread not the person see above
I’m 49. I’m sorry to hear about your past trauma.
I occasionally get the urge to get a part time job myself, but I’m not sure with the way I sleep so much and get burnt out throughout the day that I could handle it. I’ve also recently noticed that stress does indeed have an impact on my symptoms, so I’m also not sure it would be a wise decision on my part.
If it’s truly your dream, I still encourage you to try, but only you know your limitations, as far as what might put you in the hospital, so this is a decision for you to make.
The thing I would definitely discourage you from doing is pining for something that you aren’t ever going to do. If you aren’t going to try for it, try to be happy with your current life. It does you no good to beat yourself up over something like this.
I’m personally mostly ok with my life without work at this point.
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im conflicted whether to try for it or not
i am in overeaters anonymous and have a spiritual program
i have some connection to a higher power and i believe it recently told me i would be what i wanted to do ( retreats chef)
i was on a spiritual mountain for a while then realised that a phase when i’m also in communication with spirits and gods might not be something to trust so im. back to being unsure and annoyed
i think i probably could do a week retreat cheffing but it would probably have to be in an ideal world which we don’t live in and people need consistently reliable people
perhaps i can work for 4h a week in a soup kitchen instead
reply above again
yeah re energy levels and symptoms
i entirely relate
at least Im again achieving my dream of being an ashtanga yoga practitioner finally
I had a strong work ethic until I realized the rules involved with dealing with my illness made it impossible to remotely have the life I wanted. You might as well try to become a cook so you can cope with your conscious that at least you tried if you fail. After all if you succeed it would even better.
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Keep cooking - if you enjoy it. Seen your food in food thread.
Looks great.
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Not being able to work now is not the same as not being able to work ever.
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I can 
relate I wanted to become a counsellor and I’m the one who’s getting counseling 
the struggle is real and it sucks
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