Okay, so, I’ve been on this new medicine for a few months now I think, and it’s working pretty well. The only probably that I keep having no matter what medicine I’m on is paranoia. The feeling that I’m being watched. I always check all my doors that lead outside the house before I go to bed, a lot of times multiple times to make sure they are locked and closed. Then once I get to my room, I have to check all the places I think people can be hiding just so that I can attempt to sleep. I haven’t been having hallucinations since this medicine got in my system, but I’ve been having the fear OF having hallucinations. Paranoid, never knowing what I might hear or see. I’ve also noticed my paranoia gets worse at night time, or in the dark. I have to sleep with a light on. Also, I have a fear of being alone, because when I’m alone for too long I start to feel something watching me. I don’t know, but is it normal for your paranoia to not fully go away? Even on medicine?
My meds have kept me out of the hospital for a year but I still have a very severe delusion. Along with the delusion comes paranoia. I KNOW (if you know what I mean) that I am being watched all the time, even in the shower. There is no escaping the cameras and microphones. The can be as tiny as a pencil eraser or smaller. I also have a camera in my eye and microphones in my ears. In addition to having paranoia that I am constantly being watched, I fear being terrorized, traumatized or sacrificed. I am as paranoid as ever even on meds. I had an unbearable attack of paranoia a year ago and had to go to the hospital. It hasn’t been that bad but it is still constant. I take vistaril, which I have prescribed for anxiety and sometimes it takes the edge off. ya, paranoia is an everyday thing for me.
I’m sorry you have to go through that. I understand about the being watched in the shower. When I do shower, (which isn’t as often as I should) I usually get the feeling I’m being watched. Very uncomfortable. I’m hoping one day your paranoia will get better, even if it doesn’t fully go away.
Thank you. It’s tough. They watch me pee, pick my nose, shower, masturbate (which I haven’t done in well over a year), post on this forum, and they listen to me talk to them and ask them why they are doing this to me. They have been watching me for YEARS even though I only found out in June of 2015. Maybe even since I was a child. Talk about being exploited and violated.
I hope it goes away too. Even if they are there, I’d like to THINK they are not. It’s nice to feel like you have your privacy.
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