Im having a paranoia attack right now. I feel like someone is watching me. Im home alone but feel like my parents put up cameras to watch me. I know they didnt. But this feeling is really strong. I keep telling myself its just the disease.
I get this feeling too a lot but remember it’s just paranoia it’s part of the disease
I felt paranoid a lot when I was on seroquel rispiradol and geodon. Now I’m currently on 2 20 mg at night zyprexa and in the morning either take a vitamin or testosterone booster. Feel a lot better none of that paranoia. Then with the vitamin and testosterone booster usually take them for 2 weeks then skip them for 2 weeks then repeat.
Also over the years have tried invega metformin abilify and saphris but that didn’t help . Flip flopping medications is bad and overloading is even worse . Just take a small dose and stick to it.
My thoughts are on view night and day and I’m constantly in danger of thinking something stupid and being laughed at. Don’t ask me how people know, they just do. I called it Intuition. The rational part of my mind knows this is erroneous but so many strange things have happened I think it may be true at least some of the time. What a way to destroy a person: to give you an inexplicable experience. It hasn’t happened often, only a few times, but it was enough. Maybe I needed to believe in something other than myself but the trouble it caused was bad. And if you ask me what I’m talking about I won’t be able to report much as I’ve forgotten the bulk. So you would probably just say, well I don’t believe you then.
I’m starting to sound like a John Lennon song, lol, he was a king.
Im just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round.
Yeah. I keep telling myself its just the disease. I will be better by morning. Might be a sleepless night though.
I sometimes tell myself I’ll do something by such and such a time, other times I feel immediate attention is required.
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