I attended an online zoom meeting last night for people suffering from bipolar disorder and other various mood disorders.
Some of the middle aged attendees were so fukking annoying.
They constantly talked about themselves and thought they were smarter than everyone else.
Honestly I doubt anyone there experienced psychosis.
It was more of a general rap session instead of it focusing on mental health issues.
I said very little and mainly listened.
I am doubting my doctors bipolar diagnosis of me.
I don’t think I’m returning
Also, most of them were extremely high functioning and are working or attending school.
I think some people with personality disorders get mistaken as having bipolar, and the other way around. I know my sister is diagnosed with bipolar, but I have a feeling it’s more than just that. She’s very grandiose all the time (oh wait that can be bipolar) but she has other things that make me think personality problems.
But maybe me saying she has personality issues is me misunderstanding bipolar. Idk, I still have trouble fully understanding bipolar, which makes me a hypocrite for expecting other people to understand schizophrenia.
Yeah, I mean, I’m no psychiatrist, but if you have psychosis as one of your prominent symptoms, I would say you probably have schizoaffective. I think the mood symptoms of bipolar are more extreme than they are in schizoaffective.
If I’m honest, I don’t believe I have moods most of the time (even now) until I get paranoid and down… Maybe I just lack the insight to see it. I think I may have schizophrenia alone.