Into my work each time I’ve worked.
It feels like I’m being watched.
I saw a nutritionist and I keep thinking the men are reviewing what we talked about because the topic of martial arts came up.
Years ago I was at a monastery studying martial arts and the men put cameras all around the dojo inside and out!
I also got super dizzy and couldn’t function.
I left and never came back.
That was 11 years ago.
Now they’re following me again because I’m leaving the house.
How do I deal with this?!?!
I’m sorry you’re struggling with this CoCo.
I wish I could help you. All I can say is that i’m here to listen to you.
Our minds can play tricks on us.
Maybe try to confront yourself when these thoughts arise. Like this is not real, my mind is playing tricks on me.
Do you see a psychologist? I’m thinking that would be helpful.
Is this the case at your current job too?
Yes. There have been people I know I’d be told I’m delusional about who seem to be getting info on me
What makes you think this?
Is it just a feeling?
Or are they doing something specific?
I have a therapist I see 1-2x per month. I haven’t seen her since I started working.
And was doubtful I actually got the job because they didn’t start me as soon as they hired me.
But they did start me so that’s that. She was wrong
It’s the way they watch my every move, like there’s an intense focus on me @everhopeful
Just remember that it isn’t real. If it was they would have taken you out years ago. It’s just your bad wiring in your head messing with you. That’s why it was harmless then and it’s harmless now. You got this!
That must feel horrible.
But at least leave the possibility open that it’s just a form of self consciousness.
I hope tomorrow will be better at work for you.
Thanks @everhopeful . My husband tried to work and couldn’t continue.
We’re not able to make ends meet with inflation.
So it’s imperative I keep working
Are they always the same men you think you’re seeing? If you see the same men then if you’re in a safe, crowded place then talk to one of them. Either you’re hallucinating them and there’s no one to talk to or you can just politely and non-threateningly confront one of them and say why are you following me and the stranger will confirm they have nothing to do with you.
It’s a risk but they say face your fears.
I think there is one best way to handle this. You have had these beliefs for a long time. Even though everyone here tells you they are not real, you still believe them.
So, we are likely not going to be able to talk you out of these beliefs soon, if ever. With this in mind, I think you should just try to address what problems could be caused in this scenerio.
I think the most obvious thing, is that you should not bring up these beliefs to your employers, coworkers or customers…or anyone you might think are “sent people”. This could cause you problems in the workplace and maybe lead to your dismissal. It should be brought up to your pdoc and therapist and such , however.
The second potential issue is that it could make you nervous, I guess. This is harder to deal with. I guess maybe think of it this way: You are in a public place, they cant do anything to you. All they can do is watch. You will be fine.
I don’t know. Thats all I have atm I guess.
I used to see the same men all the time. Now they send others on their behalf so it seems. I mean I’ll think about saying something to them. I can’t confront customers at work though so I’d have to think about what I could say
I hate to say this but these all seem incredibly unlikely it’s your mind playing tricks on you it’s also called a delusion HOWEVER you seem like your a good person some very caring people have paranoia it’s sad that they get those thoughts you are safe the as others have already mentioned they haven’t done it because there not trying to hurt you
Unfortunately some of the nicest people are the ones who have been through a lot and don’t want others to feel the same way they do
I don’t think you should do anything.
I’ve interacted with them and they get worst.
If you don’t the same people,
Can you try reason that they would send the same people everyday if this was happening.
There is nobody following you. Accept that one fact as true and disregard any idea otherwise. Nobody will ever have any reason to extensively follow you.
i agree with @Bowens. At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter if they are real or not. You are in public so all they can do is watch. When I was younger and had this struggle, I made up a narrative that changed my reaction from fear to pity. I couldn’t convince myself it was delusional, but I could change the way I thought about the spies.
If someone comes to your work to just watch you do your job, they must be super bored and have no life. How sad for them. The most excitement they get in the day is walking into a store to watch some lady. Imagine how depressing and empty their lives must be. Those poor guys. You must be the only bright spot in their whole life. How fortunate for them that you started a new job so they can have more activity in their lives.
change the way you think about spies
pronoia is a term i heard before about thinking others are out to help you rather than harm you.
Thanks everyone. I’m going to keep your comments and suggestions in mind