Hello, I’m new here. I have been experiencing some pretty strange things for the last 7yrs, I want full transparency here, I’m 43 and I used a lot of illegal substances from 2017-2021 pretty heavily. I had Psychosis episodes during the times I used, but once I stopped it would go away within a day. Ever since putting the brakes on it for the last 2yrs, I’ve experienced a pretty weird thing where I feel like I’m hearing sounds/voices/music in the background noise of things like the AC running, oscillating fans, and other electrical/mechanical noises. I feel like this has been constant for a few years now, with episodes spiking whenever I’m lacking sleep, more tired than normal or when I’ve gotten hyper focused on it.
A couple weeks back I had a 2 week episode where I kept hearing the same few phrases over and over that would repeat multiple times but then change over time, then go back to repeating the same phrase it started with. I haven’t had this issue in the last two weeks, but I feel like that because of the ongoing stuff, maybe, my brain has gotten wired in a way that is exacerbating it. I’d really like to hear some people explain their actual clinically diagnosed issues so I can see what, if there is, differences there are in my situation as compared with others. I think I may have given myself a long term psychosis that is triggered by PTSD and Anxiety Disorder, which I am diagnosed with, I’m in a place where I can’t tell if the things I"m hearing are in my head or what and it makes day to day living very uneasy and fuels my anxiety about going and doing things, being in public spaces or just hanging with family and friends.
If this doesn’t belong here, please let me know where it does and I’ll repost. I am glad I found this forum. I have upcoming appointments next week for mental health as well, just know I need to start unpacking all this stuff that I’ve been neglecting to deal with.
I took Haledol, Depakote and Zyprexa and none of them stopped it, then the voice that I was hearing at that time kept calling me a dumbA and kept saying you’re not schizo that’s why it won’t work? It had some very colorful and personal threats during the episode I had during my stay at the psych ward. Is there someone I could talk to in a DM or something to discuss further??
I’d hear music from the fan in my room once. Back then I googled and found that it’s a sort of common thing, I believe they called it musical ear syndrome. Not sure if it’s considered a hallucination.
I think I only picked up on it because I was overly worried about psychotic symptoms since I had quit meds back then.
In my case, I don’t think those meant anything other than me being excessively worried, but I’d get it checked out if I were you.
As said, we can’t diagnose. That being said, I was first diagnosed with schizophrenia in early 40’s. NOt saying whether it is or is not in your case, but its not unheard of. I have no voices or other hallucinations though.
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