Went on another hike today and picnic at the beach. It was hard since I havenāt recovered from the last hike but I told myself it is my new goal to ānever give up.ā So I still managed enough hiking to get sunburned. I have another hike with my support group on Thursday. Not sure, I might passā¦ Now I am home. Still no word on the tax job. I plan to do another few chapters of coding class mostly just to practice self motivation. Then tomorrow I will print out copies of my resume and references and go to job fair on Wednesday. All that exercise really cleared my head!
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I saw my nurse practitioner and new therapist today. She seems nice, I think Iām gonna bring up my concerns of me having a personality disorder next session. My nurse practitioner unfortunately didnāt want to change my medicine right now because of how I just recently got a lot of medicines upped and she wants to see how those will effect me before doing anything moreā¦she talked about upping the abilify to 20 to see if itāll kill my mood swings but idk, I kinda wanted to try a separate mood stabilizer because I feel like the abilify doesnāt stabilize my mood like it does other people
You are living in heaven! appreciate it!!!
Holy ā ā ā ā thatās huge! 
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Yeah, I saw a moped parked at the beach and I though that could be me one day if I get a job and can afford a small car. Housing here is quite pricy though so even if I could afford to rent one day it would have to be a shared place in a far away area.
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damnā¦that is a big rabbit!!! haha classic!
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Wow @anon62973308 . That looks like such a boring place to hike!! haha. I grew up on an island off the coast here but it wasnāt as nice as Hawaii! Looks spectacular! Great pics!
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No meds for 3 days now, and I feel like Iām dying.
Canāt eat, canāt sleep, canāt think, canāt see or speak to anyone.
Iāve been bedridden, and today is the first day was able to shower, read, and write, but not for very long.
I finally ate something at dinner, but cried about it the whole time, and couldnāt finish it.
Iāve been taking Seroquile I had leftover to sleep, but it makes me feel worse, gives me some really f%cked up nightmares, and still dont sleep, because I wake up in a panic, and then canāt get back to sleep, again. I talked to my mom on the phone, and she doesnāt get it. She keeps telling me to āPick myself up and keep tryingā. Well I most certainly would, if I could!
I donāt know what Iāll do if it doesnāt come in, tomorrow.
Were you an accounting major or something or was it premed? English? I forgot. 
Doesnāt sound like any fun! What meds are you waiting on? Can you go to emergancy and get a temporary scriptā¦I know out here you can get meds from the ED if your in crisis. Can you ring your doctor?
There is an app called āstravaā that records your walking routes, showās other hot routes people are taking and a bunch of other stuff. It can also be combined with vital monitors as you are walking. There are premium features for $8 ect. Itās a really great app that I recommend.
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Not for medical cannabis, which is what my doc has me on, because literally nothing else works for me.
All I can do is waitā¦
ahh fair cop. Sounds like an interesting story!
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I was a English major and am currently applying to be a substitute teacher. I have a little accounting experience and might also apply to be a clerk. Iāve decided not to take a job that really requires specialized education at the moment, since it would be higher stress. Iām hoping to save money and eventually go for more education without having to get a loan. Iām looking into programming and started a trial for online JavaScript class thatās pretty good. My goal right now is just to squeeze time by keeping busy till 8 pm at latest. After 8 pm I will start winding down and just watch tv and rest.
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I took a look at it, but Iām really weak at exercisingā¦ Even before being sz I was abnormally bad at P.Eā¦ It looks like a great app for people who exercise regularly. For me, even walking 1 hour is a big stepā¦ I do not feel ready for something so intense!
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@insidemind Sorry. Enough about me. So youāve decided to go back to school in the Fall? 6 years is a long time. Being better off financially is an attainable goal for someone like you who has the motivation. My suggestion is to take your time but try not to waste time. Take as much breaks as you need because they will help you get better. But donāt waste time. Work as much as you can on programming now with the goal of making more money and not being a career student. If you are past the study age, you need something to put on your resume. If you are still waiting for class to start, why not take a part time job and use that to pay for online classes? Or freelance a little? Try to see how normal people your age live and learn to be a little more like them. Even if it means going to eat out for dinner with your mom once a month. Copy healthy well adjusted people not just in work but to live a good life.
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What os the name pf the alm app?what is the name of the calm app? I need to meditate more.
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Itās called ācalm.ā It is a blue app written in cursive,
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Great advice. Right now I feel like a zombie (over-medicated and little motivation). But that can change. I want to make websites but I would be happy with a part time job making $800 a month while keeping my disability. I signed up for housing which could take up to 2 years. The class should be easy but itās the stress of parking, being around people, keeping my hygiene up, etc. that is hard.
For the job I want, it would be easy like shredding paperwork and faxing stuff. 15 hours a week. Right now itās just hypothetical. Iām not good at programming yet. I have an opportunity to work on a basic website using wordpress this week. Have you used wordpress? Is it hard?
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Noooo. Wordrpress is pretty simple if you know your basics. I took a look at it for support group. There are premade templates or you could make your own with headers, tabs, etc.
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