All clean! I just had a nice hot shower and did all of my oral hygiene, too, feeling nice and clean. 
My sister and bro-in-law are making a special dinner tonight; I’ll go there in a few hours. Idk what they’re making, but it will probably be a nice ham with some good sides.
I am so freaked over my new years resolution. Everyone i told know i can’t do it. Loosing 30 kg weight ( i am overweight all my life) and quit smoking ( i quit smoking for last 30 years). It seems i just added alcoholism to my nonos in 2020.
I almost finished my big Godiva cup of matcha green tea with 0 calories sweetener Splenda (2x 1g).
up for another day, slept in this morning, its going to be hard to wake up early tomorrow to go to my sisters for christmas morning. celtics won last night yay i only watched the first half and they were losing when i turned it off.
can’t wait til christmas is over, the waiting is killing me, i just want things to be normal again and the days to pass by without events. went ahead and gave dad and mom an early christmas present, 5 lottery tickets haha, 2 for tomorrow night’s mega million drawing, and 3 for saturdays night powerball drawing. i told them if they win they should take care of me haha. im getting frustrated that nobody has won yet, i keep telling myself i will stop buying lottery tickets once someone wins. typically i wait for the jackpot to get over 200M before i buy a ticket. i also got them a box of red wine, cabarnet, but will give that to them tomorrow.
i have no presents to wrap, just cards with money for my niece and nephews, and gonna put my sister and brother in laws gifts in bags. easy peasy, i hate wrapping gifts anyhow.
@Marbles just said to me it’s in my head, but then he said after ‘it might seem real in a bit though’
HES IN THE IRAA
@anon47167357 stop. No one here is in the IRA and no one here controls your voices.
Get help. Please. You’re very sick.
Did you see what marbles said to me? Just explain that
You’re twisting the words to fit your delusion. He’s saying what we all say
You need the hospital and should go grt help.
Dude, no one in the IRA knows who you are; they don’t give a ■■■■ about you either way.
Why would he say: it’s gonna feel real in a bit though, how am I twisting his words?
Just spent from 6:30 AM to 12 PM shoveling and snow plowing. Felt good to be useful. And it got my heart beating. Made some cash. Yay!
Now I gotta drive all the way to my grandma’s house for technology sh!t.
Hope y’all are well.
Skunky! 
are you tired at all from pulling an all nighter?
And stop flagging what I say. You DO need the hospital.
You’re very sick and need help. Please seek help. The last thing you need is to continue indulging in this delusion.
I wanted to be an actuary and bought the first p1 study manual but realized with my condition I cannot do it. My negatives suck. If I had money, I would use infinite actuary too but it’s so expensive. It’s an online study thing but it’s pricey even with a student discount.
I wanted to be an economist/investment banker and then actuary. Now I’m thinking about programmer or something.
Please anominanize my account @anon4362788
@SzAdmin
@anon4362788
My two cents are an online associates degree in math would be perfect for you.
It’s nothing overly advanced and it would give you a goal to work on.
I wanted to do that degree but my community college sadly doesn’t offer any math degrees.
It’s all business and sales crap.
We’re having a very sad day at my house.
With my mother in law passing,
My husband is just inconsolable.
And I’m also super upset that I’m not with my family right now.
It’s a tough year.
Took a PRN, hoping that’ll help calm me down a little.
That’s the steps. Sorry you feel you need to leave. But just because we tell you to get help is not a reason to leave. We care about you and want to see you well.
I’m so sorry @GoldenRex. I hope your PRN helps
Hugs to you. I feel bad for a lot of people around this time of year.
Take care of yourself, friend.