I am awake most of the night. Can’t sleep. I do nothing all night because there is nothing I want to do. While my boyfriend is at work during the day I sleep because I actually can and there’s nothing else I want to do. The few happy hours of my day are spent with him. Then its bedtime and the cycle repeats itself.
I can’t stand the not being able to do anything. I’ll think of literally any of my hobbies and they all seem so unappealing. Life seems boring and unbearable. All I want to do is sleep and dream. I guess I am depressed.