I have a voice in my head that says christian religion blasphemous thoughts. I’ve thought i was possessed by a demon for 1.5 years and was going to burn in hell forever. I would hallucinate colors out of my vision, have short term memory, felt terrible suffering, was unhealthy from smoking cigarettes, and felt enslaved inside my body, like your mind was asleep and you didnt decide anything you do in your life. I’ve tried to kill myself over 50 times but i just cant escape this hell i live in. I am hopeless and weary but i still hold strong to my faith. Its like im living in a fog inside my mind. I take risperdal which has helped but the voices are still there. Weird thing is though, everytime i seek from the lord if im going to hell or not, he tells my heart im saved. Some scripture has helped me cope with this illness.
"That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. "