Last night I went to Hetalia day, except no one but a few even bothered to show up at the right spot. I started seeing and hearing things. I got really depressed then as well, and sat by the crick, wanting to drown myself in it. My friend’s dad came to me and he gave me yet another religious lecture. I hate it when people do that. I didn’t tell him exactly what I was feeling because his six year odl daughter was there. I kept crying and then begging God to kill me. My voices kept telling me to drown myself or jump off one of the tall trees. So i got up and started to climb the tree. The thing that pisses me off is that I remember every moment of my psychotic episodes. And before anyone asks, yes I have been consistently taking my meds. What made me so angry too is that he said SATAN was sending the voices to make me hurt. I can feel when it is Satan, i have not felt him for months now. MONTHS!
There is no devil. Religion is delusion. We only have the concrete things to worry about. Sorry your having troubles. Suicide is not something you need to contemplate. You will get better at this in time. Watch your diet, take your meds, and keep yourself distracted. Don’t listen to the kooks who believe in fairy tales and mythologies this will only make your delusions and hallucinations worse. You gotta establish positive value for yourself. You are priceless and capable of many great things. Focus on doing what you love and try to ignore this disease. Best of luck out there. Really monitor what you put in your body and how you feel in your state of mind. Keep track of it. We are chemical beings and are more sensitive then people give credit to. Again good luck.
I don’t practice religion I hope that there is a good God but basically it’s true religion is a delusion as no one knows how we got here
@BryanAshley @shellys12 I believe in religion, but I dn’t turn to demonic possession for every time I have an episode. I believe that this problem is just a chemical imbalance, nothing more. It’s been there since I was young, since I can remember.
i think you should be listening to a professional rather than getting that advice from him, i think sometimes we need to step away from religion bc thats what i would do if my thoughts were mixed up and all of that. i don’t think it is a bad thing but sometimes it doesn’t help and that is a shame.
Believe what ever you want to believe. Just don’t be bullied. I just have to say there is no evidence of God. There is just physics, time, and random evolution. Not just of beings but of the galaxies and laws of physics itself. Why there is something instead of nothing is a question that cannot be answered. More to the point though there is something and stuff. Make the best of it. If God entertains you or satisfies you then believe it. But fear is no reason to elect a belief.
I lost my belief when I thought “What kind of god would curse so many people with such a thing?”
What sort of God would put you in a life where you have to keep yourself convinced that something has gone horribly wrong?
People can believe what they wish but they may not bring it up to me.
@anon59133895 I wish you best of luck to overcome this, you aren’t alone in this battle.
@daydreamer @BryanAshley @Peavy Thank you. I do believe in God, but I don’t think I am being plagued by demons. I haven’t seen a medical professional for a few weeks now. My van broke down about a momnths or so ago and we haven’t been able to go anywhere.
there may well b demons out there somewhere but i don’t believe that that is what u suffer from hunni. well done to u for being able to put ur religion to one side and see ur illness for what it is. try not to listen to too much delusional thinking babe. maybe call ur shrink and ask for a med uppage. good luck xxx here any time u need a chat xxx
Can you call a taxi or something? It sounds like you need a ride.
There are no taxis in Heber City. @Peavy
@jaynebeal And thank you.
Oh, that sounds like a pretty bad thing. If you can you need to get your van fixed.
it is fixed, but I won’t be able to see my therapist or pdoc for a while.
Money problems?
my insurance pays for it, but I don’t know if I can anytime soon. But my counselor at school has arranged for me to meet my therapist. My mom hasn’t made any appontments with my pdoc though DX
Good that you get to see your therapist, maybe from there they can help you get ahold of your pdoc
maybe. Thanks, peaves X3
You’re welcome, always glad to talk.
hi psychotic teen i cant be in crowds the same thing happens to me i hear things that aren’t there, i want to be where other people are not LOL
Breakthrough symptoms are pretty common. They’re often brought on by stress. It’s good that you’ve got insight into your illness and that you’re sticking to your treatment.