I have all of hell speaking in my head and i just ignore I guess. In my heart I feel like I’m just tolerating it and going to go to hell for doing so. This is the main voice/delusion 24/7 and I just don’t even know. This post was just me rambling no need to respond.
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Are you seeing pdoc? I’ve had similar experiences and found meds can be helpful for dealing with such thoughts.
I am @Bipolar_Bear I’m just hearing this bs 24/7 and it can be very disheartening/frightening.
How long have you been on meds???
Took me two years of nonstop meds almost to get rid of my religious delusions
I understand that man! Your pdoc will eventually get you on the right med regime and dosage. Just hang in there, life will get better! You’re going to have a great year in 2016! 
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It’s been about 4 years of hearing religious delusion based thing @turningthepage if I may ask, what was your thinking about that delusional phase, did anything significant happen that caused you to change your thinking about it.
Sidenote: religious delusions can get you in a very dark place ( I rather be believing in aliens, not to take away anything from those who do)
Thanks @Bipolar_Bear hopefully your 2016 is a great year for you as well 
I have taken medication for about 5 years and have switched meds a lot and have current stayed on a cocktail of medicine for about 1.5 years @turningthepage
I thought I was Jesus or the devil…one of the two. Meds brought me peace, happiness and reasoning but it didn’t come right away. I suffered from religious delusions for over 4 years too.
The Jesus delusion was helped by going out in the community and realizing I have no supreme insight that would enable me to be Jesus. And everything was out of my power.
I thought I wasn’t the devil when my depression became treated by the abilify. No longer thought I was in hell
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sorry your getting that chris, i had some religious delusions once, having it constantly at the back of your mind sounds horrible, don’t let that ■■■■ get you down, stay strong
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when I heard voices before going on meds I thought i was guaranteed to go to hell too. However, because of some of the thoughts I had while I was in psychosis that I’m ashamed of I still wonder if that’s true, even on 40mg a day of abilify. Sometimes I wish that I could be one of the Christians that believed in Once Saved Always Saved, but I don’t. I want to believe that God saves the vast majority of people, but I don’t really know what is going to happen. I think if you choose Jesus it definitely helps though.
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I believe that I am Judas iscariet the 13th deciple and under the instruction of jesus and the Will of God I have returned to overthrow the devil …I will restore peace on earth…I will rule the people and control the land…I have been drawing up war plans in heaven-I will defeat the devil in his own domain. …I am an angel of peace!
This is an excellent public service announcement for staying on your meds.
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Hey the guys got dreams and more motive then i have to do things, no need to bring him down @Rhubot
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It was more appropriate on another thread (the one he posted about meds only contributing to symptoms) and even then, not terribly appropriate. Point well taken, @chrisjjack. Thanks for saying something.
The religious conservatives are really pushing the idea of hell on near death experience sites - real fire and brimstone stuff - burning in a lake of fire for eternity. I think they’re trying to assert their fundamentalist interpretation of Christianity. To me, it seems kind of sadistic to condemn people to intolerable suffering for eternity. I can only think of a few people who deserve that - Hitler, Stalin, Mao, and those of that stripe. I don’t think I would want them to suffer for eternity either. I’d like to see them suffer just as much pain as they inflicted on others.
I grew up going to church on Sundays and never heard one word about hell nor brimstone let alone the fire, well, there were candles.
If only I didn’t have visions of what could be such a place in the vast reaches of my mind. A dark formless void at the depths of which someone who’s life I have a few memories of, lay motionless and unable to move in a particular bed in a particular room (a room that would become mine in my teens) until an epiphany, a memory, he finally broke through to the source of his demons, and were his demons dark and disgusting…and down upon him swept what I can only describe as two enormous white birds and up, up, up, up they carried him and the next we know we are in a hospital delivery room and he is being reborn into this world.
I find the idea of a Hell of eternal torture and pain thoroughly distasteful. I understand the logic that says bad or unclean people are not permitted to enter Heaven. I understand that there must be ‘another place’, but why should people be tortured while they are there? And I am not talking some form of ‘mental torture’, but physical torture. I have seen the remarks of some Christians who state, almost with glee that sinners will tortured over and over again; that sexual sinners will be raped by devils. And then they talk about a God of love. It doesn’t make sense to me. I would not want those who have hurt me in life to be tortured for eternity. This makes me look better than God, who, in comparison looks rather vindictive and spiteful. That can’t be right.
I think we create the fear in our minds, like in Ghostbusters.
Best wishes,
Padster
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I don’t believe in hell, thank goodness. I see the creator like a parent full of. love and forgiveness. Parents never give up and neither does the creator.
Then what are you doing screwing around on a forum for the mentally ill? I guess world peace and overthrowing the devil can wait till after you’re done posting…
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