Psychosis feels great?

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I know for me and some that psychosis feels great… sometimes I wonder if its “normal” to feel this way? Feeling “Psychotic”?

Could it be that society and the rules of the law and not the rules of the jungle isn’t compatible with us being psychotic?

I have some trouble describing what I really mean but I could try better to explain if someone really doesn’t understand.

I don’t know about you but when I experience psychosis and paranoia I feel great and feels like I have super powers.

Why are we forced to take these medications? Could someone enlighten me please? Is it because I might be a danger to society? Is it because of the way I think?

Also I take antipsychotics in pill form I could stop them anytime I want but I know if I do il just end up in the hospital again and possibly with a even higher dosage of antipsychotics, I don’t take these pills for me I do it for everyone else around me because in the end I don’t have a choice.

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There’s something seriously wrong with you, no offense. I hate being psychotic.

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I felt euphoric sometimes in psychosis. I felt like I understood the world, was one with the universe, uncovered the secrets of time and space, all of that stuff. There were times when I even felt orgasmic. But I also felt unimaginable terror that caused PTSD and has left me feeling forever unsafe.

I don’t really care about any good feelings I felt when I was psychotic. It scares me when I think about how f*cking nuts I was. That’s not what I want at all. I want to live a normal life.

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Mania feels good since your brain is being flooded with “feel good” chemicals, but at the same time you’re making crazy correlations and developing a broken, mentally ill worldview that never ends well.

I’d strongly prefer a sane, quiet mind that feels a little bit good, than a crazy, manic mind that feels euphoric (including the subsequent crashes that happen.)

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Having my brain shrink because of the meds, being crippled by the side effects sounds great doesn’t it?

So worth it to be “normal” isn’t it?

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mania does feel good, but only to a point

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Be psychotic, as long as you can function properly. No harm in that.

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Psychosis felt amazing to me at first. I felt like I finally understood myself, other people, the solutions to the issues plaguing my family and society at large. Then came the descent into cognitive hell which I’m still dealing with the aftermath of. Never again, please.

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The thing is once you are labeled by your psychiatrist as being psychotic or having schizophrenia you lose control of what you can do, you have no say, you are controlled by whatever they tell you and give you.

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As much as I want to argue that mania is great, I cant mate. It has its ups and downs.

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Could it be the medication that is causing you cognitive problems?

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I know you weren’t asking me, but I developed cognitive problems that persisted both on and off APs. I had a neuropsych exam and the doctor concluded that I did in fact suffer some brain damage from my untreated psychosis.

Edit: I also have other mental issues that seem to have been “unlocked” by psychosis, like OCD and anxiety and mood disturbances. It was a little like Pandora’s box for me.

Psychosis :-1:

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Maybe one of the reason I think it felt great was because I was never left psychotic for too long compared to some… I don’t know I am torn between being psychotic and normal, the meds do work I feel “normal” while on them, they have given me a 2nd life in some ways, I don’t know.

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That’s not the case for many. We do just fine on meds, thrive even.

First, I’m not normal. I’m awesome and awesomely so. Second, having a family, a career (several, actually), and a good life has definitely been worth the struggles I’ve had off and on with meds over the years. I love my life for the most part (at least the parts that don’t involve my wife’s parents).

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I hate psychosis it is fear to me. As for meds I take them for me, no one has ever tried to force me to take them.

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I really relate to @antidepressant044. My trigger warning for psychosis lately is thinking that there is a greater cause going on. I watch snl to find “clues” on what’s going on, I grow serious and concerned over things I have no control over, and my own personal life suffers. I get this righteous feeling like society is being changed and I need to help… it makes me really sad. I have insight these days and when I start to feel like there’s big things going on, I know something is wrong. I really enjoy being sane. Having psychosis damages my brain over time and every time I get psychosis I end up lower functioning. I feel myself slowly declining as the psychosis wears on. It’s terribly scary.

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I feel like this a lot of the time. I am so angry sometimes that I get forced into a corner about this.

Right now I’d rather not be in touch with reality because it sucks.

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A Nobel Prize Winner for Literature was married to a schizophrenic. He wrote the novel Steppenwolf about a schizophrenic who is 48 years old and comforts himself with the idea that at age 50 he’ll allow himself to take his own life. Then, a beautiful young woman appears and adventure begins.

The 1974 movie Steppenwolf is good, too, revv. I think you would like it.

J.

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I think that you have to learn how to harmonize with it. For example it’s ok to have creative thoughts and deep thoughts, but not thoughts that are irrational about people and reality, so it’s a matter of being able to differentiate what is psychosis and what is just you being yourself. Some thoughts are interesting and a part of who we are, but we don’t want the thoughts that conflict with the reality of things and/or are threatening to the state of being of things.

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I feel the same way.

It’s been both good and bad during psychosis for me.