I’ve always been Into the occult and mystics. I’ve always believed there’s something more out there (that’s a whole other story) 6th a sense esp whatever you may call it
I see things as signs and knowledge because when my thoughts become true sometimes I get worried the(especially) scary ones will come true . Some of the intuition and stuff is neutral though but what if somethin Bad happens bc I think of it it? I try to cancel them out if makes sense.
Can’t be around big groups either bc all the energy, I’m trying to get rid of my own entity attachments lol.
I can usually read and feel People’s energy easily ,usually my intuition and being able to read people I try to figure out how to act. I’m often skeptical and it feels like an obstacle course, idk how to communicate clearly or coherently often but I feel so much. Or I think i know what they’re thinking, usually scares me I think they’re out to get me at this point becaue I’m crazy but I’m also Crazy and right sometines you know. But what if I’m causing other bad things to happen in. Ripple effect … Idk I hope this made sense thanks for reading if u did
On Friday, I started talking to someone who grew up in a family that practiced magic and dealt in the occult. She said she has seen some crazy things and believes there is something to it. The thought that it could be real triggered my voices again that night. If I start thinking too much about it or believing it is real, it will trigger me. It is probably the same for you.
When I said that I just meant general ancient and or mystic knowledge/philosophy. I don’t even so any kind of magic. It’s more psychic powers not practicing things
To be honest, I have had to leave all this behind. The meds knock much of it out of me so I am largely muted, but some things still come to me.
This kinda thing has no value to anybody else, and they all think you’re crazy for having such beliefs and you get medicated.
I think the power of it was so overwhelming that I had to convince people it was real, but now I know that was a mistake.
I only take the pills now because without them it’s too over powering. Whatever it is that causes it, is too strong for me to cope with.
You have plenty of time once this life is over to exercise this kinda of thing, so enjoy what this life has to offer first before it’s too late and it goes away…
I’m torn on this subject. On one hand, I do have what would be considered unusual occultic beliefs (like my ability to emotionally connect with others over a long distance and influence their feelings, thoughts, and behaviors, as well as read their emotions) but at the same time this stuff doesn’t cause me much distress. So I have some trouble seeing it as problematic.