Well, I’ve been dealing with things relatively well.
I just finished a job interview on Skype. If I land it I’m moving to LA this year.
If not I’ll still go and look around to find work and visit uni campuses.
What could possibly be wrong then lolol
well ive had severe depression and schizophrenia diagnosed to me about 10 years ago.
i would be coping with it but coming home and collapsing on my bed from being in my head too much or feeling too nervous in public.
3 years ago I quit meds and got the docs approval to monitor my own withdrawal symptoms and come back to him if i truly feel i need to regain balance.
Now I feel less weight off my shoulders but when i am depressed
It hurts even more. Its hard to explain. the emotional phases i get into are quicker and less frequent. its harder to cry, but when i do cry its overwhelming and probably more tears are produced during these sessions than any other years before. i can truly feel my emotions too.
i get help when i really need it but if i get it i get less attached to the idea of me having problems.
my brain feels weird cuz now its pretty stable yet the stress that ive put on it throughout the years has caused it to almost feel like a bruise inside my head. like i know my brain to be a depressed brain yet now its doing just fine. sometimes i feel like my brain is stiff. like it has more space and the ability to worry less yet it feels like its recovering from being tense.
idk theres no happy medium. haha