Possessed by the Devil

Unusual Beliefs
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Every time my episode has been a devil delusion, it has ended up in me losing control of my body and attempting suicide. I lose total control of my body and try to hurt myself in a suicidal way. When in control, I don’t have even have suicidal thoughts even in an episode. I fear the episodes and realise I can be a danger to myself.

I have been possessed by the devil twice and done the “exorcism” myself twice. I am not even religious except in the episodes.

Anyone else have some god/satan delusions to share? with good insight, not looking for pity or sympathy

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I have never thought I was possessed by the devil, but I did think that my soul left my body… and a ghost took over…

One that gets me a lot… I become my past life. Who ever I was in a past life… comes back and takes over.

I didn’t get suicidal when I was having an episode… I’d get the opposite… the need to feel like I was very much alive and would always stay this way. I once tried to freeze myself so I could be alive in a few centuries.

My suicide problems came with the numb flatness of the negative symptoms.

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I had sampled several different episodes over the decades, the Satan Delusion is always the most extreme for me, where the pills and medication have no effect.

Past life could be cool would require a lot of imagination, it’s more the raw power feeling I recall.

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For me it’s the out of control, not myself anymore feeling. I don’t really know who I am… and can’t explain why I feel so disconnected from myself.

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detachment from self is a good defence mechanism, I get hyper awareness or hyper consciousness, I feel everything it seems

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I don’t believe in it, but in the peak of my psychosis the devil used to interefere with my dreams, and demons would take control over me. It was very much physical, and I had night terror. I screamed at night, the people that I shared an apartment with were scared of me even… they couldn’t sleep and neither could I.

It only passed with medication, but it was imediate. Once in the hospital I didn’t have anymore of those delusions and hallucinations.

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The devil delusion is a metaphor meaning that you think that you’re bad and have lots of guilt

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Maybe you’re right yes

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I have delusions that I am the Christ or Anti-Christ sometimes.

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You people actually believe in the devil and possession or realize it’s just a delusion?

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Both. At least I was delusional enough to think that the Devil is real.

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Shout at him: “Get away, Satan!”

His voice attacked at the very moment I was enjoying watching sports game on the TV and eating junk foods.

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I wrote out one of my episodes here.

I had religious delusions and hallucinations

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Similarly, I was told by the voice to buy all newspapers from a hawker stall and gave them to home of the elderly nearby.

And one day, “God” told me I was “Gabriel angel” and he actually directed me to a church of St. Gabriel. He said to me: “See how people worship you.”

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Sorry you had to go through that experience @levelJ1, for me it was the devil trying to steal my imagination, kill my unborn child, and other stuff. Then I was set on being god and had the strenght to fight the intreference, but it was daily, plus the demons, what a mess of psychosis.

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Thanks minni.

Sorry you had to go through yours.

Psychosis really is a mind melter

I’m glad nothing like that’s happened in a while though :blush:

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You know sometimes I used to think maybe I faked it all. And that it was never real and that I’m not mentally ill at all.

But then I realised what happened is so detailed it’s impossible to make up :blush:

I’ve accepted that I’ve had psychosis and mood disorder and I’ll be managing with various recovery levels throughout my life now.

Took me till last year to accept this ain’t Just going to dissapear like a magic trick

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Yeah I get that… I, on the other hand, still think sometimes it might all be true. My mind made such a spectacular explanation that makes so much sense that I can’t even begin to take it apart.

I’ve also accepted it a few months ago, that it’s a life long illness and I have to take good care of myself.

So instead of fighting it, I accept my delusions as delusions and don’t try to escape from them. They’re just there on the background and eventually it’ll come a day when I think “oh ■■■■, remember when I believed I was god?” lol… looking forward to that moment

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I was fighting the devil in my thoughts, I didn’t want him to take me over because he would try to kill me some how. I was fighting the devil with the god delusion, so two delusions were going to war inside my head.

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Sometimes I have this fear too. That the psychosis was an act of self deception. At the time, I was about to be forced into a bad financial arrangement so having the psychotic episode during the time that I did ended up being in my financial interest. But I think of all the things that I said and did and conclude that it’s improbable that you could fake it all. Furthermore, I was semi-delusional for a very long time before my break down.

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