Poll: Do you take it easy or do you hold on too hard?

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Do you take it easy or hold on too hard?

  • Take it easy
  • Force yourself to do things sometimes
  • Hold on until your hands are bleeding (i.e. bite off more than you can chew, forget that you have a disability, ect)

I hold on too hard and it makes me go nuts. Like quitting smoking and not filing disability in school, then taking hard classes trying to graduate with honors and keep a high GPA in order to get into a master’s program.

I personally have the problem of not thinking of myself as disabled; instead I get irate at my symptoms and feel challenged, not injured like I really am. I get in too deep every fall and then around midterms I have an episode, I am in the midst of one now, I am on “emergency” extra meds and supposedly won’t be on them for more than a couple of weeks, it has been over a week now.

The problem is that every semester, I come through with a high GPA and more honors classes completed, so I just do it again, repeating the cycle of overload and then idleness in the summer and winter breaks.

I strongly advise not going to college unless you yourself actually think that you can endure some real life stress- look at how many people make crap grades, drop out, fail a class, ect.

I think trying to be like Elyn Saks may have been a mistake. Now I have to prepare a presentation on stigma and schizophrenia, ironically. Elyn Saks quit smoking after she got out of school, John Nash smoked while he was a student too.

I blame quitting smoking. I have read articles and cited them in papers, people who have schizophrenia smoke, period. I just had a dream about having just one cigarette, it has been over three months without one and I haven’t had a single cigarette since July 27th.

I hate being me sometimes, I wish I was not as good at controlling my behavior- if I wasn’t so composed, people wouldn’t expect much out of me, instead I myself expect to earn a master’s degree and have come too far with school to drop out, that and I am on scholarship so I may as well earn a free bachelor’s.

I am totally complaining.

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Thanks, that was helpful. I bought a carton today and feel more stable, back to normal basically. This zyprexa has me drinking tons of coffee. Can’t wait to be taken off of it.

I do have my priorities straight, I’ve done an outline for a speech (ironically it’s about schizophrenia lol) and am drinking another coffee getting towards my reading for medical ethics. Things are ok, I realize that I get unstable around this time every year. Something about the seasons possibly.

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And I’m shooting for a masters in general psych at this point, clinical is too competitive and maybe too hard. I’m meeting with the director of the masters program on Thursday. At this rate I will graduate on time if I take summer classes.

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I see recovery as a moving target. Except the target is a brick wall that doesn’t like to move. Got to hit that mutha HARD and OFTEN to make it shift in the direction you want it to.

And that hurts. Really hurts.

But not doing it hurts more.

10-96

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you should not try to fill other peoples shadows.
you are a strange person mortimer, but i like you for your eccentricitys’.
it is good to reach goals but not at the expense of your health/mind.
you will always achieve, that is who you are.
you just don’t have to go at 120kmh all the time.
look at your study/work, like your weight lifting, muscles do not sprout out of your arms and legs straight away, it takes many, many months of repitition and perserverance…and a lot of sweat.
but you still get there.
of course i am not as smart as you, but hey just my opinion.
take care

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i keep trying to push my limits but i end up doing too much, i am really worried about this counselling course tho as it is really testing my abilities, i just barely got home the last couple of times and now i’ve asked to see a counsellor which is another potential 50 mins onto that day and idk if i can cope, i wish he/she could meet me in my house the next day after i have a chance to recover.

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I take it super easy. I just want to sleep, eat, excersize, ride my bike, do my hobbies. My parents are the only thing pushing me nowdays.

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don’t take it too hard,i once stopped gaming and totally cut off for 3 months too,but recently when i play it back,it seems not addictive and i am not worried about the time i spend on gaming because its just not so interesting anymore