Hate the inconsistency in sizing. Ranging from medium to extralarge I can’t order clothes off the internet. Wish I could though, there is a lot more selection.
you seem pretty good. maybe a medium would work for you? but you don’t have to order online. I order some american brands online like kate spade and I’ve also ordered a lot dresses from China. I don’t know if you can also order from china?
I don’t know. Mediums barely work.
YES!!! I feel like such a failure every single day of my life since I developed psychosis. It’s like schizadmin said, it’s comparing myself to what I thought I could have been. I really thought that I was going to earn a lot of money either as a pharmacist or physician’s assistant, get married to one of the amazing men I met at college, have kids, and still have money to donate to the poor, make a lot of friends, and generally just be independent. The voices didn’t help with the expectations. They kept telling me that I would be successful in the eyes of the world. I used to already think I was some kind of prophet, so spiritually I thought I was all that. The psychosis ruined everything, not that I could have necessarily done it even without psychosis, but I think if I had gone to an easier university and not had psychosis that I could have had a really good chance. Now I’m rotting in my parent’s basement and can barely go to community college. I have to start all over again. I wish I hadn’t done anything for the past 7 years, then I’d be better off cuz I wouldn’t be under a mountain of debt and I would have a clean slate as far as grades go. Who knows, maybe I would have even went out and had fun. I tried to make friends in college but the psychosis turned me into a total douchebag. Plus my psychosis kept me from connecting online long term to anyone, so yeah, college completely wasted. life completely wasted. I don’t even feel good about myself as a person anymore because the psychosis caused me to see that I have a lot of shortcomings, and to come to grips with the fact that I’ve never been a prophet, just arrogant and delusional. I try to distract myself with music, forums, family, and daydreams, so that I don’t think about what a failure I am in every single way. I went to a church once about four months ago, and the message was that we shouldn’t compare ourselves to other people, because we should just be focusing on God, and that by feeling better or worse than other people is because you’re putting people above God. It’s really hard to do that when I’ve failed at every aspect of my life. The only things I have in life have been given to me, either by God or by my dad, and at the age of 25, it just makes me feel like such a failure.
I felt like a “failure” only on occassion prior to becoming SZ, and only in accordance to my relationship/connection to God; but now I have realized that very few people on this Earth would actually be able to handle the depths of pain & suffering my SZ has caused.
Thus, feelings of “failure-ism” have left. Now I simply fail myself on occassion, but it’s pretty easy picking myself back up from the minor stumblings.
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I feel somewhat disappointed, but not quite a failure. Instead I feel others have failed. I wanted a real revolution and it aint happening!
Meant for say anything thread.
Not a failure.
I can’t fail at a game i never wanted to play.
Not to mention there is no choice, so what is a failure?
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Not being a drunk that uses alcohol as a release from the real world that I am currently in.
What I really don’t like about organized religion is it sets you up for failure, they call it sin …I call it failure.
Think think think, practically speaking its not sin its failure ,its sad how people that are supposed to guide us away from failure/sin instead guide us towards towards it with the ignorant possibly evil belief that it doesn’t matter what you do you will be whisked away to heaven as long as you profess your sins/failures AFTERWARDS .
That is pure bs and if you don’t believe me look at the state of the world now its ending the world is ending because we DID NOT EVOLVE as a species to the level that we are supposed to be at.
In closing. …sure technicly im a Christian but im no religious nutcase im just forward thinking.
I’m not a failure. I’m a beast.
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Right on brotha!!!
I don’t know man. I don’t feel much passion about religion unless I am talking about witches. lol I guess we just got to chill. Most people are more lazy than us. We’re battling demons and they’re working at subway and then coming home to smoke a doobie.They don’t have a care in the world and have no real intellectual challenge like us trying to figure out what is going on.
We have the no touch, slow kill torture.
In the system I am in I am tortured if I am wrong, and I am tortured even harder if I am right!
I can kind of relate to that.
The best way to win is to not play at all. Regarding this anyway.
What does smoking a doobie have to do with intellectual progression?
I thought that you are more intellectually enlightened than others, now I see that I was wrong ,you are just as dumb as the rest.
I did not mean it that way. I meant they are ■■■■■■■ happy getting high and we are just ■■■■■■.
Dude man , a higher/lower power is taking control of our minds with synthetic drugs, big pharmacy owns us , and ignorance is the playground of that lower power.
Define him as you will call him satan and blame everything on him because that takes the responsibility off of us.
You know Daimon once you turn you can’t go back.
I personally don’t feel like a failure. And I read all your posts and I don’t think of any of you as failures. Honestly, I don’t. I don’t use that label for you guys in my mind. I see some people who do more than others and I think, “Well, he/she is lucky they can do that”. I guess on these forums, the word “Failure” is not in my vocabulary.
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