I don’t feel overly depressed or sad, but I do feel like a failure a lot of the time. The sense of being worthless can be shoved into the corners of my mind for a while , but inevitably it creeps back to centre stage.
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I think like this sometimes, but then I remind myself how worse off some schizophrenics are, living homeless or in prison. So seeing as how I’ve avoided those fates, in a way I am a success.
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I am also a failure. Times when l am high on myself l dont feel like a failure.
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I’m sorry you feel that way @firemonkey. You’re not a failure.
I have major depressive disorder which unfortunately causes me to often have feelings of worthlessness.
Have you ever been diagnosed with depression?
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I don’t think you are a failure.
I think you’re OK.
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I can relate, I feel the same and do not want my future to be the same
I fear because of it, and it’s not nice because you want to be able to be kind to yourself
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I’ve been on antidepressants in the past, including MAOI. Had 2-3 sets of 6 ECT. Was on lithium for about 20 years.
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I feel like a failure too but it is just how the society perceive me, I don’t feel that I’m really a failure.
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I am a failure too. My illness is very debilitating for the life… But i think you are ok, we all have these thoughts sometimes… Just believe, that you’ll get better soon and its never late to start the journey of life again and to prove to the others, that you are good 
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I’m sorry you feel like a failure. You’re not a failure. You might just need another AD. Do you see a therapist? Maybe now is a good time to talk to one
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I’ve seen 2 trained therapists , and someone untrained who was supposed to help with my anxiety. The trained ones pulled the ‘If you want to be a good person…’ routine as though I was morally defective . The untrained one told me I lacked self confidence and then went out of her way to find as much fault with me as she could . Later told me she was part of a small religious sect , and soon after dumped me when I wrote an intense piece about my experiences. That was c2008-2009.
Because of those experiences I have little belief in therapists.
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I was a success before my sz. I am a failure now after sz but I dont blame myself, I blame it on the sz. Its not healthy to blame yourself.
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Therapists made me worse, just more angry and stressed.
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so your saying you are successful schizophrenic.and you have no mercy about other schizophrenics.shame on you.
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That’s too bad. I’ve had bad therapists too, but I kept looking until I found good ones. Good therapists do exist
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I feel like a failure too. I dont even seem to blame the illness and just blame myself.
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Nobody can pick you up but you, they can lend a helping hand but no one will ever know if it works or not,
Don’t be hard on yourself, you are able minded because you’ve written exactly how things went wrong - that’s called insight, you’ve leveraged your knowledge with your experience and come to a conclusion ; the problem lies in the fact that you feel responsible, you aren’t. As above ; sz can make things hard but you are here to fight that and live your life
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I’m a failure too, don’t know how I’m going to make it on my own.
At least your not alone in this firemonkey
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I have severe depression, which makes me feel like this all the time.
You are not a failure. Please don’t think that way.
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I totally understand @firemonkey. I’ve been brutally rejected by almost all of my therapists as well. To the point where I refuse to undergo therapy at all anymore. Besides, I’ve discovered that I am my own best therapist by far.
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