I dont know what is wrong with me. I have been to therapists since I was 16 and I always felt like the were so patronizing and just in it for the money. They never asked what was going through my head and never tried to help me understand my symptoms. Few years later I am still suffering and it only gets worse. I hear internal voices. I have never been able to control my thoughts, they are always negative thus I am always unhappy. When I was a child I had a big imagination. My childhood is extremely distorted and I can only remember the bad times with my family. I would talk to inanimate objects like they were my friends and would write on the walls to answer their questions. I feel like obviously this and the fact that they dont proactively try to understand or help really pushes me further in a hole. These voices have become a huge part of me that I cant stop. any techniques, meditation, mindfulness etc does not prevent these voices and they’re there unless I have distracted myself. They theyre when I’m with people but MUCH more frequent when I’m alone. My psychologist has prescribed me a small dose of Quetiapine to start of with when needed.
I just need help, advice…anything…
You need to see a psychiatrist, not a psychologist or therapist. You need some strong antipsychotics to stop those voices, not a bit of quetiapine.
I also have internal voices and they are louder when I am alone
Hey, do you expect things to get better? I never did,so i stayed in a constant state of depression. Whats worked for me is to expect high times. Then when they come I dont talk myself out of them by reinforcing the thought that it never gets better. Plus it helps you get through the bad times by focusing on the positive in life, the highs. Lifes just highs and lows. I hope this helps. Hang in there.
See a dr is the only advice
I’m not sure what internal voices are like
is it like racing thoughts
I think you need some inspiration in life
something to feel good about
it could be a concert or just a walk and looking at flowers
I think if you know what your problems are
you’re not that bad off
I just feel like they’re not listening to what I’m actually saying…
they have diagnosed me with emotional disregulation but what’s that gonna do?
Yes. exactly…
Please see an actual psychiatrist, he will give you a proper diagnosis. “Emotional disregulation” is only a part of the diagnosis for mental disorders listed in the DSM-IV, not a full diagnosis. Plus, you’re hearing voices, that should be grounds for a schizophrenia diagnosis.
This is all I’ve wanted. I’ve never been able to explain how I’m feeling or what was really going on inside until I came here
I’ve never been able to explain it which is why my therapists cant understand. I feel controlled by these voices, there are multiple in my head just insulting me, putting me down in really disgusting ways etc. Its like my own mind doesnt want me to be happy?
Was your childhood very traumatic? The behaviors you were describing to me as a child sound like someone who was very lonely or neglected, and lost pieces of memory of childhood could also signify an abusive childhood. Not saying that’s 100% your case but just reminds me of it. Internal voices (thought insertion) alone without any other symptoms of psychosis like delusions, paranoia, hallucinations, etc may actually not be a psychotic disorder and may be a part of the trauma.
A psychiatrist will give you a proper diagnosis and can provide medication. A psychiatrist is not like a psychologist. Most psychiatrists do not provide therapy and are not there to listen to your thoughts and feelings, they are there to diagnose a problem and medicate. A psychologist or therapist is there for all of that other stuff and if good will listen to you and work with you on your issues, their source and how to fix them. There are also many different kinds of therapy you can try and some types work better than others. For example EMDR is supposed to be the most effective therapy for trauma out there right now, while CBT is king for anxiety and depression, DBT is best for borderline personality disorder, etc.
Hi there!
thank you so much Anna for taking your time to write out to me. It means the world. My memory of my childhood is pretty fragmented only remembering the verbal abuse from my mother. She would threaten and scare me a lot and on a few occasions physically hurt me. I dont like talking about it as my mother and I are trying to work thinks out and she said it was all out of love etc. I live in NZ and she is German. I never felt understood or cared for but it was never something I talked about. For my mum it was all her way or no way and if she didnt understand something then it must not exist.
also I am in the waitlist for DBT!
I’m sorry you went through that. EMDR is cool because talking isn’t required it uses a different mechanism to help with processing. I hope whatever you try it works for you and you can find a good therapist who actually helps!!
I’ll ask about EDMR!!
Thank you heaps…it feels overwhelming the support on here 
Seek alternative therapies and supplements and improved diet
This is what I’m experiencing. I’m doing emdr next week tlk
Improved diet, certainly, but supplements and alternative therapies should only be done with proper medical supervision as either can be extremely dangerous if you bump into the wrong ones. The sooner you see a real doctor and are put on a real treatment program, the better your outcome is likely to be.
Welcome to the community!
Let me know how it goes!