hi! so I haven’t posted here in a while but I’ve been really struggling with these kind of thought patterns and I was wondering if anyone else had experienced anything similar.
I’ve always kind of had these thoughts, especially within the last year or so but recently they’ve gotten super debilitating. Kind of an overarching belief that everyone thinks I’m an awful person. I really worry that I’ve somehow done something deplorable that I don’t remember doing and everyone but me knows or that people can read my intrusive thoughts/they’re being broadcasted above my head or something. It got majorly triggered today after attempting to go and get groceries where I essentially got kicked off the bus by some kid who said I couldn’t get on while letting the two girls behind me get on without a word. Kids can be mean but I can’t help but think he knew something about me I didn’t? Or that the girls also knew which is why they stood so far from me at the bus stop.
It’s been really distressing and it’s hard to tell if I’m just overly sensitive because I ceased my medication recently after taking it consistently for so long or if this is real and I really am awful but just don’t know it.