Right now I’m feeling that I deserved sz.
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I was a bad, hedonistic person for 23 years. I’m not anymore. I’ve been trying to be good for the last 14 years.
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I’m actually not sure. Sometimes I feel like should I be more forgiving?
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Yes I feel like I’m a bad person lots of times, especially when I had an argument with my husband and hurt him or disappointed him. I can be my own worst enemy.
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In comparison to our primeminister I am a saint.
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No i don’t feel like a bad person, maybe involuntary but no, no way!!!
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Bad boy for life…!!!
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I think it can be easy to start thinking you might be no good if you are criticised. However deep down I know I’m a better person than my critics.
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I think I have become so good because of this illness, it’s not normal.
I’m not bad enough!
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sometimes i think i deserve sza.
Nobody deserves this not even our worst enemies
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Why do you feel that?
I may be a bit that way too unfortunately .
I think I could kill for food but it may depend who n how etc
I am not a vegan anymore but may be a touch torn about it.
I would love to be able to defend myself from any one and anything.
Including nasty vibe attacks …
And that no one can restrain my energy and body etc
Perhaps I have my bad gal moments but I’m better since I quit alcohol etc
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I will always defend myself. It just feels like a lost cause sometimes. Some people are really good in it. I don’t care much. All I care about is to be healthy, be happy, and have fun!
I dreamt I was humiliated and ridiculed by a fake makeover with clothes etc
I want to change the quality of clothes I buy.
My boyfriend has bought me fake jewellery that breaks and that can cause rash and allergy and he also has bought cheap polyester clothes with n for me.
My mum hates polyester but there can be nice designs in it.
I rather save up and buy better quality jewellery and clothes.
I buy from second hand sometimes.
I hope my father can be proud of me somehow someday and not embarrassed etc
I was into bamboo and rayon and still think it is comfortable.
Maybe I have been bad to myself when I buy or wear things that are not good to and for me.
Also to the environment etc
I ruminate on my past “sins” nearly every waking hour. I believe I was a bad person but I’m slowly getting better.
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I don’t know I have noticed that I’m a third generation sz or sza sufferer but unlike my father and grandfather I don’t drink to cope with the illness. But I think because they were violent alcoholics I’m being punished
I’m sorry to hear that. you don’t deserve that.
i never felt bad admitting to anxiety, hallucinations, etc but when i finally admitted my personality problems i felt ashamed and like an awful person, especially because those behaviors are still in place
I’ve been arrested for small dumb stuff, but I never hurt anyone so I think I’m a real nice guy.