I feel like I’m a bad person and I feel like all the bad things that are happening are means of punishment for me. I feel like I’m causing everything to go wrong by simply existing. I don’t want to be a problem I don’t want to hurt everyone around me. I just feel wrong. I hate it.
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This is also a delusion, maybe caused by early trauma.
Many people who were bullied as kids later develop depression or suicidal thoughts.
The same mechanism could be at play here.
Please understand that such thoughts aren’t based in reality and discuss them with your caregivers.
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Bad things happening to us are not curses but a test. We are strong and will get through these challenges.
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Sorry to hear. I feel the same, It seems life and people are too demanding on me. Even though we love each other.
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It’s not your fault. Bad things have always happened since the beginning of time, before you were ever born. And they will continue to happen long after you’re gone unfortunately.
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I feel like a bad person a lot too. I know I’m not though. It’s tough.
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I also get the feeling of being a bad person at times. It was worse before at some point. I couldn’t care less at this point. Don’t let it get you down.
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What are you doing that makes you a bad person ? 
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All my friends are struggling right now and I feel like I must have caused it somehow. And I know that doesn’t really make any sense but I just feel like I should have done more to help. But I was selfish and focused on my own struggles. I feel like I should have ignored my own limits cause maybe things would be better. I feel like if I had ignored my limits I wouldn’t be suffering like this now.
I know how you feel, @Noise. I’ve had my own fair share of rather egregious mistakes and sometimes living alone can intensify rumination and self loathing. Lately, though, I feel a lot better. It sounds like you don’t have enough of a support network around you that you’d like, is that so?
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You are not selfish or a bad person everyone has their own issues. You’d probably would have ended breaking down by ignoring your limits. Everyone needs a break.
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My support system used to be super strong I had a really good therapist and my friends were always there for me and I was there for them. I was so healthy.
When my physical health started to fail me though and I wasn’t able to help people like I used to and my friends were struggling.
I couldn’t do anything except maybe talk I felt so useless. I feel like I wasn’t a good enough support so they all stopped talking to me. I feel so abandoned.
Currently I barely talk to my friends and I’m looking for a new therapist. I feel so alone and I feel like it’s all my fault.
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Thank you @anon19606225 I know that you’re probably right. I just feel like everything is falling apart and idk I know everyone needs a break but idk I guess idk if I really deserve one I just feel like such a bad person tbh
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You’re not a bad person and you are not being punished. Sorry you feel this way.
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I didn’t choose to have a bad brain, neither did you. It’s really not your fault. I feel ya on the negative thoughts though, they consume me on a day to day basis. Wish I could offer some advice, but hopefully one day it will be easier to deal with.
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I understand why you feel badly that you’ve been abandoned. That hurts deeply. But it’s not your fault
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I also feel like this because i deal with homicidal ideation. But i am not my thoughts. Im a very kind, caring and loving man in spite of those thoughts. I’d be a mess too if my friends abandoned me. Thats a deep cut.
You arent a burden and you didnt cause bad things to happen. Sometimes they just do. And if you ignore your limits you’ll fall apart and be unable to help them at all for a good while.
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I have some pretty horrible thoughts too so I understand what you mean. I know I’m more than just my bad thoughts and that they don’t define me.
As for my friends idk I kinda wonder if I’m just over-reacting like idk I don’t think they have any real reason to hate me but because we haven’t been talking I feel like they must.
Idk I just feel like I’m the source of so many problems, but I know that I have a delusion that I’m the source of all problems and evil in the world. And I can’t tell if I am causing all of this or if it’s just my delusion.
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