Ok, guys, so i’ll try to not sound desperate…
But i really do have a progress now… I go out every day, even if i feel the fear into my guts, till my feet even but i walk now… I’ll keep pushing…
But the support to me is few, i still end up every day on the couch around 5 pm for some hours…
And in fact this is not a negative symptom even for me, dears… My pdoc currently states, that its the paranoia…
Tbh am gaining in reason too, in lightness of my body so even in energy, but its ultra new this, my paranoia before was so deeply buried, that i wasn’t even aware that it is etc…
Now i see it well, yes, its fear… A fear , who is able to make you hide in the bed under the sheets, shaking from head to toes, imagining all kind of threats about my life etc…
My point is that now , this paranoia is less buried. I noticed, that now my zyprexa helps it a bit more than before, cause now its real or maybe more on the surface…
So i’ll keep the meds still, am sure, that i’ll go backwards without them…
But i wondered if your paranoia was making you totally passive too?? My mommy is tired in fact and she blames me now, that i still dont help her, so i have a big guilt too, yeap…
All the best to all, lots of health and happiness in life to you!!!
Due to being afraid of a small group Navy SEALs wanting to kidnap and torture me, I was afraid of leaving my house for 10 years. I’d only leave with my husband.
Now, I’m still being followed but my medications help me feel calm enough to leave the house for a bit each day on my own.
I even just started a very part time job!
I think it’s possible to tweak your meds to get you to a point where you can get out a bit.
Oh, we really found, that the zyprexa helps the most my paranoia…
But my sz was for decades to be smashed and completeley submissive… I also know the total despair since the age of 10…
My pdoc was saying, that the paranoia affects badly the reasoning, i even didnt talk for years for example and its still an effort…
But now i fight as heck, believe me and i see some progress finally
The thing is, that my mother is tired now from the life and she blames me all the time, that i dont act enough yet and that i dont help her… She just keeps saying, that she too feels bad in health, but she just does the things gosh… She has no clue of how painful is the paranoia, neither probably cares anymore, its hard to live with someone, who talks to you like this all day long…
Anyway, lets keep getting healthier, good luck to all!!!
I understand what you go through now, @Anna1. I could never understand before. Probably because of the language barrier I don’t know. I go through the same with my paranoia but nowhere near as severe. I think we can all relate to you @Anna1 but on a lesser scale. I say lesser because I can at least get out of bed every day.
