Feeling like others are responding to my thoughts, feel like I have to hide my thoughts, feeling exposed/transparent and the center of attention in public/around people. Also feel like I’m mentally exposed, even if someone is in the other room in the apartment.
Do meds help with this, or do they just dampen my emotions/thinking so that I have no motivation to think about it? Or can meds take it away and make me feel more ‘normal’ and functioning, without having overwhelming fear and feeling like I’m exposed in public, etc.?
My pdoc says I have negative symptoms, as well, but the Risperdal she gave me seemed to only increase them, ‘greying’ everything, making me more irritable and not motivated to do anything…
That doesn’t sound like paranoia at all to me. Are you sure that’s what you are experiencing? Paranoia made me scared to talk and I felt like a prisoner in my own home because I thought there were cameras everywhere.
I also thought the government was out to get me.
APs never helped but benzodiazepines did. Just my experience.
Meds r tricky…you have to be willing to stop or start meds that are working for you or not. It’s kind of scary, but I’ve quit meds that were working but made me gain weight. You have to be honest with yourself about wether the meds your on are working or not, and dont settle for less than feeling right. The meds along with coping skills kept the paranoia away…yes. best of wishes…godspeed
I don’t know, then, if it’s paranoia or just fear/anxiety that I experience. But like people can get stuck in my head, and I look at them to see if they knew I was ‘thinking’ about them - that they were stuck in my head. Also, if people around me cough, make noises, etc. sometimes I feel like I need to change my thoughts…
I do often feel like a prisoner in my own mind, but I don’t think anyone is out to get me or anything…
Thank you, same to you. Well, my pdoc had me on 1mg Risperdal for a month, and I just felt more and more flat/deadened and couldn’t take pleasure in music, etc. I felt more disconnected from my brain and less present. I don’t know if I should’ve given it more time, but I stopped it because of all that. It didn’t seem to help much…