I cant really think idly anymore on meds , but thoughts used to occur to me at random and I’d laugh spontaneously looking odd to most people.
I remember one that occured to me quite often when I was at work:
I had an unusual idea for a spiders web building kit, not sure how the web would be spun maybe with a type of pen with silk forming fluid in it, I don’t know.
Anyway the laugh is the mental picture of being in a situation bored enough to build this web and leaning in close and getting the web stuck in ones hair, so that when somebody sees you youre perfectly still with cobwebs stuck to you collecting dust.
To write it out its not that funny, but to me captured an absurdity of being so absolutely bored and doing something symbolic of it. Almost like playing a video game, a live action way of wxpressing boredom and complete meaningless activity.
I sometimes find myself laughing at my own humor lately. More than is probably warranted. I think I may have hit on the best balance with wellbutrin that I’m going to get. There are some issues with it, but when my mood is really good, its worth it. Even if I am a bit wacky.
I hit similar “high” moods when I first switched to vraylar coming out of psychosis. but that vanished.
I think it’s hard to get the right balance on APs and other drugs. This may be the best I can get at the current time. I think Imma hold for awhile.
Sometimes I imagined people nude and I was laughting lol Voices would say I am smartest human which made laugh or ask me hey what are you doing or keep saying phagocytosis whenever I ate
To me thats not paradoxical, thats funny stuff. Just because someone doesnt get it, doesnt make it paradox. Im not sure if paradoxical is just like when people dont know why youre laughing or it is for absolutely no reason.