I honestly donāt think thereās anything wrong with chilling out while listening to music. I think that sometimes, those of us with mental health tend to over analyse our behaviours and this can turn to self criticism which isnāt rightly deserved.
I like to listen to the radio at the moment (something I couldnāt have done a few years ago) while I crochet. I try not to over think it. We all need some time resting.
If youāre listening to your music non stop and canāt get on with your day, I can see how that might pose a problem. But from what it sounds like, thatās probably not the case.
jinx you sound so u nhappy i am sorry. can i send you a cyber hug? i too am having some āissuesā with all the years i sufffered so mentally disabled from sz etc,
letās try to enjoy each in our own way time and ability.
In my case music and excitement in general can give me, in the span of a few minutes, a psychotic episode that lasts days or weeks. If your symptoms arenāt triggered by music, then itās fine. However, pay attention to how much time you waste on entertainment. Since you post this message, I suspect you find it difficult to concentrate on important tasks. If that is the case, then you need to work in that direction.
Iām not easily entertained post sz. I have a difficult time getting into things. Pre sz I was into video games, movies etc. Areas where I struggle currently. I have been getting into series a bit more recently. Entertainment is an area that I just donāt seem to have the capacity to have enjoyment like I used to. Itās disheartening. But I think I am improving with some effort.
Bowens describes a common symptom of depression specifically and mental illness in general, that is inability to feel satisfaction. I think they call it āthe flat effectā. I experienced it extensively as well. I pursued my career since I was in my early teens. I wasnāt very good at it, but with luck and persistance, I received gains. After psychosis I no longer cared about any of that. I couldnāt even enjoy good food, much less social accomplishments.
The good news is that itās possible to overcome this, and many other symptoms.