So i just realised. I spend a lot of time avoiding my mind. For example. Ill smoke becuase it requires no thinking. Same with music.
I dont leave the flat unless i have earphones and the past week ive been inside bc of this reaosn. I suspect im scared of “thinking” and this is holding me back. Does anyone else notice they prefer to keep busy with social media/youtube/tiktok etcetera ever since developing sz?
Im really surprised bc this seems like a small problem but actually, its quite a big deal
It is a big deal not thinking that is. I use to have this problem I would stay so busy around the house just to try to stop thinking. It was very hard. Meds have helped more now.
I do the same. I think it’s normal to a certain extent to “zone out” and do mindless activities for some parts of the day. I think we all need downtime.
But if it is happening all the time and it is interfering with your life/happiness, I think a good therapist could be very helpful with this.
I dont mean to be ignorant, but how would therapy help me? I think this is an issue because it means im not able to do anything that requires thinking unless i have a comfort aid like music. Its like im a zombie most of the time
I see. Do you think its unavoidable? Because im thinking about how i used to have my own voice running an inner monologue all my life pre sz but now, i dont talk to myself in my head anymore, and i kind of want to go back to that
@AppleKidd Well, my therapist helps me figure out ways to not really change my thinking or fight with it all day, but to use coping skills to move on past my thinking and mind and still work towards my values. If that makes sense? It’s ACT therapy that my therapist does. You don’t fight with your thoughts and mind, but you learn skills to continue your day and your way to still progress towards your values. It’s used for psychosis she said.
Even like when I have some voices or paranoia. I try to accept that I’m going to have symptoms at times and I try to remember my values and move towards them instead. It doesn’t work all the time but my values make me feel very happy and I strive to work towards them when I’m able! I hope this helps.
I actually wasnt able to think much at all for awhile coming out of psychosis which was just crazy into medication where it was like hello is anyone home.
My pdoc actually has me do low dose ketamine therapy which causes neuroplasticity and has brought alot of my thinking back. Its not for most but it has really helped me.
That sounds really good but in the UK the NHS only follow by the book methods from ancient times (exaggeration) so its not an option for me.
Im happy its working for you though. It means normality is just a little closer, for me i think ill have to exercise to get as much neuroplasticity back coupled with sleep.
Hmmm. I used to listen to music or an old radio show almost all the time. I don’t any more and my thoughts are really hard to deal with lately. Maybe i should go back to flooding my mind with stimuli.