today i was at college learning about substance use and misuse and we had to get into groups and answer some questions for a presentation, we only had about 30 mins to prepare so it was totally rushed but i did my best,
i had Q1 to do which was about how the substances effect the body and mind,
so i ended up talking in front of the whole class how i had a mental health problem and i said that i was taking medication for symptoms and i said the symptoms were delusions and paranoia,
this is a big step for me as i have never shared that much before about it ever,
luckily i felt able to do that as i was comfortable with the people in the class and i just thought ‘what the hell’ just thought ‘i may as well’ and it wasn’t as hard as i thought
but my voices are different, my voices help me and they are normal in my eyes,
only thing is when i was really bad i heard things but it wasnt my normal voice it was like someone outside at the door shouting or noises such as planes and like what i thought was battles in the street.
luckily my meds must have kept it under control but it is very rare for me to hear sounds like that, my inner voice is actually healthy for me, it helps me make decisions and things.
that is why i posted that thread the other day about normal voices and it was weird that firemonkey had just posted about almost the exact same thing as well lol,
here’s the link to the article about normal voices-
the last one is probably the closest for me, i hated going to get my refills
was scary as hell, some of the people that go in there were very rough and taking methodone, i guess i was lucky nothing happened, actually had them delivered to my house at one point but that stopped,
now luckily it is a bit easier, nicer town, bigger pharmacy, better med.
chordy it was about my medication really and the effects they have like the fact that they help me manage my symptoms like delusions and paranoia but they have bad effects as well like side effects like weight gain, dullness and my eyes as well.
medications are a substance, a substance is a chemical that is made in a lab that effects the mind and body i think
i also talked about pressure to smoke a joint when i was younger.
no they didnt say anything, i actually got called an ‘old charmer’ bc there was an older woman talking herself down and i said ‘you seem like a very nice person’ lol
nobody said anything or even looked at me funny or anything, but its a counselling course and everybody is ok about sharing, most people have something about them like addiction or depression, there is a lot of people that are brave talking about their habits and illness and how it has affected people etc.
For me it’s like everything that is spoken or seen has subtitles. Mental understanding passed from mind to mind. No sound. Just the transmission of understanding. It’s almost more visual than it is auditory.