my optimism gets me in trouble believe it or not. I often think I can make good out of something kinda average. anyways I’ve decided to prepare for my move. I just don’t fit in here, and have some unease about the place.
I will either move back to where im from, or maybe somewhere else. I can afford my hometown or neighboring city and wouldn’t have to drive to work or the grocery. I will also look at other options, such as a condo somewhere, maybe ohio, maybe Illinois, maybe Michigan, maybe Oregon. but I guess my gardening days are numbered as it’s back to city life in 4 to 6 years.
this also puts a halt to all my home improvement plans, I will have a few years to work and save as well as I will get back all the rent I’ve paid these past few years to purchase somewhere else.
living here is the most depressed I’ve ever been. I was happy in my hometown, I was happy in Oregon, I was happy in northern Kentucky, I was happy at IU. there is nothing to do here, if I move back to my hometown, I can walk to the park to play pickup basketball. I can ride my bicycle to work and the grocery, I can go for walks in the neighborhood. I can walk to the bar. and I can still do everything else I do here like watch tv and get online. I just wont have the space to garden, but oddly enough the grocery stores in the city have better produce than the ones out here in the country.
I was only staying here to be close to mom and dad. the plan was always to move when they passed away. so I will probably stay close (like 10 to 15 miles away) so I can visit, but I don’t have to see them everyday. it was not my decision to move here, I need to be more independent again.
and it’s ridiculous for me to have to tolerate these neighbors gunshots and dogs. in the city if you hear a gunshot a crime has been committed. out here it’s sport to these people.