I was pretty darn odd before the schizophrenia. Like I’d sometimes make jokes that I’d only get, knowing that I would be the only one to get them because it made me laugh. But now, every time I make a weird joke to people who know about my diagnosis I have to wonder if they think it is because of the schizophrenia. I’m always on guard about it. And even better yet, that too tickles my funny bone.
Anyone else say odd things that they would have said before but worry that people will think it is because of your diagnosis?
I’ve been called "odd’, ‘strange’, “weird” all of my life, growing up as a young girl and teenager, by my parents and friends and never knowing why. Now, I know why.
Most likely, yes. I remember getting paranoid of the kids waiting in line at school and running away from school a couple of times because of paranoia. First in first grade and then in 5th grade.
Hmmm, I was the same way. I was this really outgoing, confident kid but as soon as I hit third grade it was like this switch was flipped on in me and I started thinking all my friends were talking about me behind my back. I remember my mom, my childhood friend, and his mom having a sit down conversation about it. It was so embarrassing lol.
I wasn’t diagnosed until I hit 27. But maybe there is something to that.
My family went into total denial mode. They refused to believe there was anything wrong with me. That, even though I had been bulimic for years and years right under their noses, had had zero friends throughout adolescence, ran away from home in my junior year of high school, and was dating a mature, adult man when I was 17.