I was a difficult child to say the least. I would tantrum at nothing and would have violet out bursts. I would have episodes where the walls would move and people’s voices were distorted. I was diagnosed with a mood disorder at the age of nine and was heavily medicated till I was twelve. I then went on to be less medicated through highschool but was still a little out there at times. At sixteen I was diagnosed mixed bipolor. Then at twenty two I had my big break which I’m still recovering from. I’ve never heard anyone mention childhood schizophrenia and most think this develops in early adulthood but I swear I could sit in class at eight and watch my teachers face distort.
I never heard voices or hallucinated. I’m diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. But I was coincidentally thinking just today that I was always “off” even as a child.
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I have no idea when I first started seeing walls drift and move and distort–it’s always been subtle and I didn’t know it was a hallucination, I thought i had messed up eyes or something. I also had an on again off again delusion growing up about aliens coming for me, the ball didn’t really get rolling until I was 16 or so but I think I had some precursors to it when I was younger
for sure I was a strange child, imaginary friends, communicating with animals, psychic ability, tapped into the spirit world and voices definitely before 11. I didn’t know I was strange, I thought everyone’s brain was like that. I think I’m a lot less strange now that I’m almost 50 and I know what sza is.
There’s someone on here who has talked about having sz as a child; I think it was @Anna, but I could be wrong.
I had my first psychotic symptoms at age 15, first actual psychotic break at 23.
I was a weirdo.
I was not in my body most of the time.
Strange things happened.
A few years I suffered immensely.
I was living pretty poor those years .
I can remember once when I was in seventh grade I could hear voices coming from the A/C vents, but I had a pretty high fever at the time.
I have had psychosis & depression since I was a child yeah. I hallucinated like crazy when I was little but my stuff was all cool and interesting to me like painting characters talking or people inside my fan “fixing” it or hearing music, etc. I wasn’t particularly difficult as a kid I don’t think. I was very independent and mature.
I started getting bad paranoia and delusions when I was 5 but I was my parents first kid and they didn’t think there was anything wrong, just thought I was a fearful kid with a wild imagination. Basically they just ignored any time I did anything strange or just called it a personality quirk. Like when I wasn’t washing my hair or grooming myself in middle school my mom did it all for me. Sometimes I’d try to tell them things that were happening with me to ask for help but they’d always shrug it off and never do anything about it. I don’t think I would’ve wanted to be medicated at such a young age, but therapy would have been much appreciated. Maybe if I had been started on meds in highschool it could have prevented my first major break and saved me a whole lot of trouble and trauma. Who knows.
I remember being a little paranoid of what people thought of me as a child. Even to the point where I would run away from school to avoid people’s “bad thought’s”. I remember running away from school in first grade and in sixth grade over paranoid thoughts. I remember running out of class in fifth grade over paranoid thoughts. I was always a paranoid child. It’s just amazing I wasn’t officially diagnosed with sza until I was 34 years old.
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