Even as a young child I was different to everyone else and had a thought disorder.
I did not have full blown schizophrenia until I was 23, but I felt different from other people from age 5.
I never associated with my peers at school but I did have some innocent friendships with younger girls.
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I was, but I also had weird parents with odd beliefs and I got punished a lot, beaten is more the word for it, so hard to say what was bad parenting and mental illness.
I got blamed for stuff I had no control over and humiliated and punished for, so as a child I was always acting out.
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I was strange as hekk. My strangeness was triggered by a lot of trauma from 11-14 years old. I became strange at 11 years old. Before that I was a high achiever and normal cool and popular. I was first put on antipsychotics at 19 and diagnosed officially at 20. But I think my onset and prodromal state started much earlier. I think a lot of ppl here have similar stories.
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I always felt like I was trying to fit in somehow but never quite managing it. I felt I was doing a lot of faking.
Looking back there was always something wrong that I could never put my finger on.
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I know it was later than a true āchildā. But when I was 17 my sister posted a picture of me on Facebook with the comment āweirdest kid everā. That was before I ever drank or did drugs. Not even 1 sip, 1 puff. And ppl wonder why I became an alcoholic pothead. Made me feel comfortable in my skin. After traumatic stuff like reading that. We were friends on Facebook too when she did it.
I had some friends in my childhood and teenage years. I was somewhat in, but I still wasnāt that cool. I was a funny drunk and people seemed to like me even if I was socially awkward sometimes. However, there was a group of friends who I hung out with to get high with who really made me feel like a loser most of the time. I was really quiet when I was high and they werenāt really good friends. They would like to make fun of me a lot while high which made me feel like an outcast around them. Unfortunately I ended up doing meth with them and for the few months to a year before I became psychotic I ended up feeling cooler around them but I still knew I was a loser to them.
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Yeah I hate those stoner punk kids. Fn lame losers. Sorry you got stuck doing meth with them. I separated myself from those kids before they were doing heroinā¦ I did acid instead. Hey at least I didnāt die like most of them even if it made my mental health issues worse.
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I had a normal childhood. Had a lot of friends
No real compliants.
I was a hyperactive and a slight bit troublesome as a child, I got into things I wasnāt supposed to (like going to strangers houses or neighbors houses actually). I was also pretty smart apparently, I knew how to sneak out of the house at age 2 and I was a liar just to get out of things.
After puberty and probably some trauma, as well as neglect and bullying, I became a lot quieter, less proactive and my grades dropped, I also slept less and more so in class took naps.
Iād like to say I started developing psychosis in middle and high school but it was mostly seen as overactive imagination.
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I was always on the edge, I had few friends.
As a child I was social, happy and easily made friends. I was different though, in the sense that I was sensitive and reading classic adult literature from age 7. Things changed a bit when I was sexually abused and we moved. I became more frightened and vulnerable, refusing to go to school and all. In my teens I was an introvert, shy and making friends became a bit more difficult. I was never very obviously different though. I tried hard to fit in. As a young adult I was sort-of-normal, although I was secretly socially anxious. I only developped psychosis after trauma at 29.
Canāt remember much before the age of 8. Certainly no recollection of friends. From age of 8 to 18 I had one friend that I lost at 13 when I changed schools. Was very much a loner and heavily into solitary activities.Was physically and socially awkward for which I got verbally bullied a lot at public school.
Found it difficult to relate to and fit in with the other children.
Iāve had symptoms since I was very little but I think the first time in my life where I became noticeably weird to other people was middle school when I had my first depressive episode. I was around 12. Then for most of hs I was very psychotic and untreated so yes people thought I was strange there as well.
It wasnt obvious for the others but i am ill since kid i find. Bad genetics i guess. I was suicidal since the age of 10 lol. I was diagnosed much later, in my 27ā¦
Yes. I was always different. I feel like iāve had achizophrenia as long as i can remember. Didnāt have my first psychotic episode until i was 23. Gonna be 25 in less than two weeks.
Things were weird for me as a kid.
Extreme panic disorder- night terrors, then the night time Hallucinations and magical thinking (delusions).
I also suffered with mood swings.
I remember having my first (and probably most vivid) inserted thought at the age of 8. I was pretty sensitive as a kid.
yeah i was weird too.
My sister today told me -I used to play house all day everyday and talked to myself everyday all day 
Not much has changed I guess. =(
Anyway, I also did some weird and strange things and weird things sometimes, not because I was strange but I was kinda of absent minded. Did not reason well.
Not sure if my friends thought something thou. I had lots of friends growing up.
Not sure what you mean by you did not get along with younger girls?
I got scz also around 21-22
Yes I felt different and was concidered a weirdo I think.
I suffered immensely as a child.
I was not in my body , I had strange experiences,I was surviving, I had apathy and pain, I was bullied, I was not very wanted or loved, I had some friends some times .
My steps were heavy and difficult.
At one point I only had my neighbors dog as my friend.
I did not fit in and my eons I see know weāre in other bodies.
I do not ever want to be a child again.
Not being understood.
Being ridiculed , hated and blamed for your suffering with no empathy , care or understanding what so ever.
No feeling of stability n always afraid I would get totally abandoned.
Abuse to me of different kinds.
Being forsed to do things I was not well enough to do and when doing it being triggered and it making me feel worse and worse and still no understanding from parents etc
I hated being a child and it is much better being a adult.
I was very weird. When I found out I was weird I starting asking ānormal peopleā questions and began faking being normal. Did pretty good at faking it back then. Good enough to make a few friends, but now Iām so tired I just donāt have it in me anymore. Also Iām starting to see there really is no ānormalā anyway. Everyone has their peculiarities.