Continuing the discussion from Still Irritated… my sis called the cops on me:
Now that I’m calming down, my sis brought up a long forgotten incident to my attention… and I looked it up in my journal and it was in there too.
Last time I was out all night and day with no contact was about 7 years ago and I was having an episode in park across town. I went missing for a full day because I fell off the small cliff and ended up with a broken arm couldn’t climb back up. My family called me in as a missing person and the fire department had to climb down and get me.
She also mentioned last time also about 7 years ago when I went missing with no contact, I tried to leave this life. She trust’s me to be alone, she just panics when I’m out for a full day with no contact.
So, the anger is fading and now the guilt begins. I’m not going to let it eat me. I’m going to apologize to my sis and get the out the anger management manuals and start over. Now I feel stupid for freaking out in the first place.
I’ve been working so hard to try and prove to myself that I don’t need a baby sitter, that I’ve sort of been acting like a big baby. The dynamic duo will make it through.
I do owe an apology to the sis and I have to get my patience back. So much has been changing so quickly. I need to find my balance again.