Well, that’s okay with me.
The 5 senses and sensations are our world internally as they simulate what the world externally works like to a great extent. It’s not perfect though, and to type a minds that is obvious.
Type b minds never really realize that. They see their 5 senses as external as in what those sense are is the external reality not a simulation of it.
Type c mind believes that the 5 senses and the inner sensations are external reality, and nothing within is only within out of reach from anyone or anything else.
Their success in objective reality is in that order with the type a being able to sustain success most consistently and superbly, type b wishing to succeed like type a and using type a minds as a guiding light of sorts to live life by, and type c minds completely dragging.
Several years ago I had found that I was to live a hard, athletic life both in sports and in my contracting labor which was climbing and demolition with a very strict order of mind; objective reality is external and subjective reality is internal. I lived by that.
In order to from the history I needed to objectively, I had to basically delete the subjective internally for as long as possible because pain, confusion, lack of energy, wants, distractions etc were nothing in comparison to the value of completing my intended goals in objective reality. They were “irrational notions or concepts or phenomena.”
I succeeded very well, and I surpass many people who were not scz, but my only flaw was I was doing it as a type c mind, so I could not sustain my success like a type a mind could have.
I used this methodology to develop my physical prowess in all areas such as endurance, speed, coordination, and muscle power/mass.
My entire life was based on these things on the foundation of “objective over subjective,” so as you could imagine I was quite disciplined.
The idea though was to eventually change the reality inside of me by changing the reality outside of me. So in the existential anthem one is to "hurl themselves into the future where they want to be rather than waiting for realty to take them to that ““place far ahead.””
And objectively I achieved what I intended after all which is where I am at despite having been scz.
Is this foolishness? I don’t suppose so. Is it similar to your way of thinking:
I think so.
That’s the thing I noticed right away about Taoism and Zenism. It’s almost the Trivium logic method, but then the practitioners of it are thrown off the track when they get into sci fi stuff like telepathy and supernatural stuff because that is where they become scz. They become barred down, and chained in their own minds, by their own minds involuntary reactions, and they administer these things to each other…
…which is by design.
The ruling classes used to use these kind of sci fi fables to induce this state of mind on the people because they could be controlled that way. Does that surprise you? If it does, you don’t do much anthropological research online.
What they do is called cybernetics in some venues. That is the study of systems controls via the commands to do so. In other words it’s an age old practice of studying what words cause what things to happen in the minds of people and therefore in their actions.
What you are doing mentally is the result of words. You have never encountered any beings that have shown you anything that you believe. You’re reality to you is based hearsay, and it has made you a victim so much that you wish to die according to your post 2 days ago.