No one.
“HOW?” They ask.
It just frustrates me that I’m made out to be the crazy one, and all I need is more meds.
THERE ARE people in the sky watching me, and how is medication going to keep people from wanting to kill me?
I feel all these things and I feel alone in this regard.
Why won’t anyone believe me?
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There aren’t people in the sky watching you. Your mind is playing tricks on you basically. Maybe you need your med dosage increased.
Have you told your doctor that you still believe these things?
I have unusual beliefs myself but they’re in the background and don’t bother me. It sounds like yours are in the foreground and are bothering you.
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Try the tactic I just posted a few minutes ago.
Medicine isn’t going to keep people from wanting to kill you, but the right medicine should keep you from THINKING people are wanting to kill you.
The problem with schizophrenia is that it sometimes makes it impossible for us to understand what is real and what’s not, because our delusions feel so real that we’re convinced they are.
If everybody’s telling you there aren’t people in the sky wanting to kill you, try to consider their side of things, and why they’re all telling you the same thing.
…WITHOUT going defensive and thinking that they’re all just wrong or after you.
Could it be that everyone thinks there aren’t any people in the sky because you’re the one who’s got it wrong?
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Knowing that people want to kill me makes me think maybe I should kill myself before they get to me; my therapist asked me yesterday if I need to go to hospital but I told her no because I don’t like hospital.
I just don’t want people to kill me.
My therapist made me promise I wouldn’t hurt myself so I won’t I see the doctor next week.
Please tell your doctor everything including the fact that you’re getting suicidal ideation.
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Don’t give up @stellaglow.
Please continue with your doctors and tell them everything.
Don’t hesitate going to the Hospital if need be.
I wish you only the best.
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Hang in there. Don’t kill yourself over delusions. I almost did once. I ended up in the hospital and was court ordered for three years to be medicated. Because I tried to commit suicide. I later realized when i was better medicated that the reasons I tried to kill myself were delusional.
If you don’t mind my asking, why do you think these people in the sky want to kill you?
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It’s not the people in the sky that want to kill me, it’s everyone else around me.
Sometimes I think it’s my family, but most of the time I think it’s the other drivers around me. It feels like everyone around me wants to hurt me.
Sometimes I wonder if the thoughts being inserted in my head/the voice talking to me is the people who are watching me, but I don’t know.
Trust me @stellaglow
If that many people really wanted to take your life, they would’ve surely done it by now. You aren’t some Clark Kent or Robocop, you are just a young defenseless girl. The fact that you are still alive means nobody, and I mean NOBODY wants you dead.
Oh and those people in the sky… how can they watch you so closely from afar? Do they have binoculars? 
On a more serious note, cognitive therapy might be able to complement the meds, to help you overcome anxiety and paranoia.
Just my 2 cents.
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idk stella, might be something to do with your sz, just taking a wild guess though lol 
I was constantly convinced people were after me and wanted to kill me. Sometimes I thought it was people I knew and even family members. It took a while to get over these thoughts. I take an ap and anxiety meds along with counseling. I can relate to your thoughts about that type of stuff. Now I know they are not real I now know
Oh my God, I just saw a person from another world (as I call them) dash across the field and disappear; it’s been a while since I’ve seen one of them.
I totally understand where you’re coming from…I quit taking my meds and believed these metaphysical creatures called Watchers were inhabiting other humans and were trying to kill me slowly by poisoning my meds and the food supply…then it got worse cuz the postal service knocked on my door and I thought it was one of Them getting bold, so I left my warm apt and slept in my truck in a parking lot for 2 nights. I even had a dead rat I carried around cuz it could “tell” (hallucination) me which people were Watchers.
I refused to go to the hospital cuz I told my therapist that the CEO of the hospital was a Watcher and would make sure that I didn’t leave the hospital alive this time.
I got committed. I got involuntary court ordered meds. I’m taking the meds. Now, I still “see” people who are Watchers but I don’t think they are trying to kill me anymore. They took my rat away from me, of course, but now I don’t feel I need him cuz I’m no longer paranoid, and I understand that the noises outside my apartment are just my neighbors.
I’m able to live mostly fear-free again and it feels awesome. So if you need to go to the hospital or have a med adjustment, go ahead and do it…it may improve your quality of life a lot.
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What do you mean?
I had the delusion that 6 billion people wanted me dead, and I told my psychiatrist that on my first visit.
On my second visit with the Doctor, I told him things were getting much better…that i felt only 3 billion people wanted to kill me.
He thought this was funny and started to laugh…then I started laughing…and we both tried to continue a serious discussion while we both had a major case of the giggles!
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If I believe you then what uh? I
How are you doing with all these thoughts and such @stellaglow since starting the Latuda?
What if the people in the sky are angels? What else do you think about them if you don;t mind me asking? Do they talk to you? What do they say?
I’ve thought aliens communicated with me before, but they were nice and apologized for everything I’ve been through.
Why would anyone want to kill you? I can’t figure out why anyone would want to kill you I’ve gotta say. You seem super kind.
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I’m on 40mg Latuda moving up to 60mg tonight; I still feel like I’m being watched and that the drivers around me want to shoot me.
The people in the sky sometimes talk to me.
Thank you 
I don’t know why people want to kill me I just know they do.
Thank you for having a sense of humor with it.
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