NO Cutting

[Kittycat]

I am valving command voices all day and night last night, waking me up. Trying to get me to cut again. They are so loud it is hard to resist and I know from past experience that onice I finally listen, I get some relief, at least for awhile. I hAve really been mostly good in recent years, except minor occasions, but I am really determined not to listen. If you should ever see my arms and legs, I am so embarrassed, but the damage is done a day it is a conot ant reminder to me that the voices can make me do anything.
I am 43 yrs old, not ancient, but not young anymore but I did notice there are a lot of younger people here, please learn from me, try so hard not to listed to these demons that speak to you. They are awful to hear, but try your best to not listen because you can find yourself in terrible situations.

[pob]

This might not be the place, but have you worked with your Dr to find a med/dose that can help to control the voices?

[Kittycat]

Sorry, I did not know I could not talk about this topic here. I will not discuss it further.

[BarbieBF]

I’m glad that you are trying to not listen to the voices. Cutting can be very addictive.

Some threads you may find interesting:

Recommendation for Scar Treatment

If anyone has scars I highly recommend Mederma PM. I have numerous deep and superficial scars all over my left arm. I’ve been using Mederma PM for a couple of months now and they’re not as noticeable, in some places you can’t see them anymore. My mom has noticed too. I recommend the PM and not the regular because with the PM you just put it on once every night as opposed to three times a day. It’s a little pricy but it’s worth it.

Trying to cope with desires for self-harm

Does anyone else here struggle with desires for self-harm? Do you have any good methods to keep yourself from doing it?

[SunGirl]

I’ve been cutting off and on for the past 17 years. It’s so addictive. My left arm is covered in scars and I get so embarrassed when people see them. I stopped for a couple of years but did it recently. I don’t hear voices telling me to do it, but the demon communicates telepathically and will sometimes scream at me to do it. Keep fighting!! You can do it!!

[Kittycat]

Thank you for the advice, I will look for the mederma. I have some severe scars that took staples, so I just assumed that scar cream would not help, now I will give it a try, at least the smaller scars will be less noticeable.
I have been cutting since I was 14 yrs old, not from voices but because it gave me a relief from internal pain. When I was 16 and started hearing voices, they encouraged me to cut. I am so ashamed of my arms, so I moved onto my legs. I have been so strong not to cut, but it is a real battle. Thank you for the support.

[sasha]

Thank you for linking my thread