That would be so godamed annoying if i had that, i think god spared me the symptom to make life managable. I dont know if i would let their bs phase me, but the constant chatter would be annoying af. Just thought i would share this as to its given me a new level of sympathy and understanding for those that hear them.
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I listened to it without headphones.
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Mine arenāt so loud. Mine are like people chatting in another room. I mostly canāt understand what they are saying. Mostly I just ignore them
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Do they talk so much? 
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yeah it was like this for me
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Yeah mine are critical of everyrhing I do. Constantly picking at every thought
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I think this is exaggerated, but appropriatelyā¦ I mean itās about the only direction that would gain the sympathy from non-sufferersā¦ by making it creepierā¦
First of all the tone of mine are like that guyā¦ āYou think youāre clever donāt youā¦ youāre not.ā āThickā¦ look at him heās justā¦ thick.ā
The second half of the vid they back off of the voices to allow the reader to focus on readingā¦ thatās not how it isā¦
Lastly thoughā¦ the voices constantly interact with the ongoing thoughts of the individualā¦ they arenāt like spoken wordsā¦ they are a dialogue within the self that likes to play like itās something that represents legitimate entities from outside oneās mindā¦ and the sad fucken thing is that you do find people in the world that are that foul.
3 bad sentences in 2 minutesā¦ try 50 or 100ā¦ When mine are raging they are chewing me out constantlyā¦ if I get pissed that they are there and can do that it only gets worse.
Slandering me, my past, my ambitions, my view of selfā¦ the dumb thoughts I had 3 days agoā¦ the way I feel about my family membersā¦ literally everything sensitive is up for grabs and the whole ā ā ā ā show keeps playing on auto pilot.
Beyond thatā¦ it tries new things every time you are just about to be able to take your mind off of it. New voices are hard to ignoreā¦ we are inclined to think about what we hearā¦ especially if itās not something weāve heard before.
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Iām on meds now. But if I was going through that Iād be on them double quick. Youāre still not on meds I take it? How do you cope?
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Mine wasnāt a jumble of voices, it was loud and clear specific voices that I was interacting with and they were telling me grandiose stories, I could see them too at times.
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Same here azley. Itās like they canāt be accountable for themselves and their thoughts so they target you for your and hold you overly accountable and to blame for their problems and unhappiness
I donāt have female voices, and mostly mine are not human. The human voices are a large group and muffled, always coming from an adjacent room or just out of sight. My main voice is normal speaking volume into my right ear. Thatās my companion angel and heās standing right there talking just to meā¦ he can just be saying annoying things like that I look awkward, ugly, ridiculous. That people are laughing at me, and to watch out or Iāll tripā¦ or he may attack and tell me that no one loves me or cares and that I should hurt/kill myself. It feels louder when itās an attack.
I also have ringing/buzzing in my ears, especially if Iām upset or stressed.
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wasnt really accurate in my case.
mine were not so layered.
its hard to explain how emotionally charged the voices were. when i would hear voices the weight of there words were so heavy.
mine were typically about revolutionary knowledge. revolutionary ideas. whether spiritual or worldly.
but they would take on an emotion. whether it was intense wonder and excitement, or extreme fear and terror.
and the general consensus was that I was never to tell anyone about it. always to be secretive. and that drove me nuts.
i would always get extremely overwhelmed when the voices would tell me way to much information. then they would try to comfort me about it until i was ready to hear more.
the mind was not meant for listening to voices nonstop thats for sure.
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Try it with headphones in the dark.
@Azley, @Gonehuntin do they train u to get rid of the ego? Iād imagine if u dont think overly highly of urself they wouldnt try to demoralize u. I think our structured society that makes ppl very self-consciouss and anxious prolly exacerbates the problem. I think if one werent too concerned with what ppl think about them the voices couldnt use this against u.
But i would love to hear them for a lil bit like u guys do just cuz i am curious. Thereās some sort of explanation out there for why the brain has the ability to make u hear coherent auditory hallucinations. A damaged brain wouldnt take on a new function, maybe its a lapse between the dream world and waking world.
Sorry for that. I think the mind can tollerate it, like with anhedonia u r missing a natural high that makes life enjoyable. Itās a perk of life that makes it worthwhile, but without it u get a really ārawā experience of pure consciousness.
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The brain wants to find patterns. So it shall. Even if they donāt exist.
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I had them for 3and half years. When they started it was music and sound effects only and mostly during the last few hours of the day.
Next, during the 3.5 yrs , it was a male voice, non gendered, or snake like. Usually there was only one but some times more. Most of the time the voices were clear and made full sentences. No whispering, I could hear what they said. There were times they would stop a few moments here and there. but not often. All negative. rarley had any good to say. I guess i am glad i was working at the time, if I had to sit and listen totally to them i would haveā¦idk.
I did hear still hear some music at night during the worst of it. As the worst of it left voices gradually went away but the nightly music increased first. Then the music started to decrease.
now i might go weeks with none or have it 2-3 times a week. It varies a lot. FYI- this was with no treatment.(non available).
I am sure your vid is accurate enough to give a demo. Its not being able to stop them is what i think people dont understand. The lack of freedom to control our misfunctioning neural pathways.
I would give it 7.5 out of 10. very good.
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yup. you said it better than me. about how the hallucinations act and latch on forming thoughts and feelings.
Seems to be that when Iām in high spirits they try but donāt succeed. When I try to focus on stuff inward they deem to see thst as an opportunity to attack. Also when Iām trying to sleep they tend to torment me because Iāll lay there and let them run me down. If I could just lose the awareness and feeling of being tethered to them with a cord Iād be very happy.
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No i dont think the bad things said would stop even if it were the humblist person ever.
It is just part of the illness. Everyone has good and bad thoughts. It likes to latch on to negativity because it is a stronger emotion than simple contentedness. It should also be mentioned most people who have sz or hallucinate have had bad tramas in life. The negativity is just going to be there.
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Thatās so true. Always looking for patterns . Connecting the dots game.
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That video really shook me, i kept telling myself i wasnt clever for a while. Really they did a good job in the video, really got at my core. I think i do think of myself as clever, due to high cognitive functioning.
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