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Need Help, I talked to something that isn't there a lot of times

I sometimes talked to something that isn’t there, i’m aware of it but i kept talking to it. there’s nothing but i can hear them inside my head they’re answering, sometimes they listen to my problems and give me the solutions, but i never considering their solutions because their solutions seems to be a bit much for me handle, example : i hate some people and all they give is “kill them slowly, but get close to them first, create some bonds with them so nobody would put you on the suspect list.” sometimes i went too far from reality when i imagine things, like imagining kiling people and such, but the weird thing is i sometimes feels it was real, like getting stabbed while imagining a knive fight with people i hate. i sometimes create a situations in my mind but when i realize it, i was doing it too. sometimes when i was confused, or pissed they would give me the solutions without me asking.
there’s a time when i get depressed suddenly when i was laughing watching the TV, i decided to go and grab the knife while i was confused about my life so suddenly, it just feels empty, hollow, alone.
can anyone tell me why?
i had enough with this voices, it literally destroys my thoughts, i can’t think clear.

My advice is to talk to your doctor about it.

I’m 17, and well i guess talking to a doctor who said you’ll be fine is useless

Maybe find another and better doctor? You can’t keep living like this. Are you on medication?

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You need to get to an early psychosis evaluation and treatment center as quickly as you can - tomorrow would be a good day to call them (or today if they are open when you get this message).

What country / state are you in?

Here are some lists of where you can find them:

http://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/early-psychosis-treatment-centers-how-to-get-great-help-for-free/12743
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No, i still could handle it, but i’m afraid that i can no longer handle it.

Indonesia,
No i can’t go and meet a doctor. o
I only talked to my close friends about this. i haven’t told anything to my parents. and they haven’t realize it. i had no plans to talk about with them anyway. kind of drag to them.

Without any real full time care, the best way to deal with voices is medication in my experience, but it doesn’t always work. You can get medication through a psychiatrist. I recommend that you also involve yourself in the practice of Buddhist Mindfulness Meditation, Vispanna style, a monk or teacher can help you with that. Buddhism is a philosophy that can work with any faith or atheism, it gives you tools to lead a happy life and develop compassion for all beings. A talk therapist may be able to assist you as well in uncovering the cause of the voices and related experiences.

In the mean time do not do what the voices say. Be respectful with them but do not do what they say.

Pretty difficult to find the good things in life that make it worth living when being preoccupied with voices who have not only have no physical body, but no soul either.
Practice showing compassion for others and it can have the potential to fill in the hollow empty times in your life.
Hurting others is never a good thing to fill your mind up with, it can weigh heavyfor the rest of your life.

If you had a broken leg, would you go to the doctor? It is the same thing. Many people do not understand, but it is not something to hide. You will feel so much better if you can get good help from a doctor. Please try.

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I heard them, they know i didnt give a ■■■■ about their opinion. i’m afraid that they could attack me from the inside.

Yeah, you’re right.
but it’s different case if your broken leg has their own mind.

I always back down and refuse to fight, i hold up my anger, i rarely show my anger towards people. i’m afraid that if i fight i’m gonna lose myself, and they took over my body like they wants it from the start i guess.
all they did all this time is to make me forget about myself, and hope to let my guard down.

You can beat the voices - but you need a doctor’s help. Here is a treatment center in Indonesia - if it is not too far - go there, they will help you the best. If you are too far from this center - then call them and ask them for a recommendation of another doctor close to you. Tell them your symptoms - your voices, etc.

You can get rid of the voices and start feeling less depressed.

Contact these people below:

Fransiska Kaligis,

Noorhana SW, R

Child and Adolescent Psychiatry Outpatient Clinic
Cipto Mangunkusumo Hospital,
Jakarta, Indonesia
Jalan Diponegoro No.71, Senen, Jakarta Pusat, DKI Jakarta 10430, Indonesia
+62 21 500135

Sylvia Detri Elvira, MD
Department of Psychiatry, Faculty of Medicine, University
of Indonesia and Dr Cipto Mangunkusumo National
Referral Hospital, Jakarta, Indonesia

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I’m sorry @Dmitri but you need to do exactly what @SzAdmin is saying you. you could hurt someone or yourself and it’s not safe. right now you have control over the voices but that might change. I personally lose touch with reality and it could happen to you. Get help asap

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I have to answer your question to the other user because I can relate.

Answer to the broken leg question.
In my case a broken foot.

!st time: No, I did not. yes it was definitely broken.
2nd time: reluctantly I did, but not until the next afternoon, and only because I was escorted. I was in a cast/boot for the next 11 months.

you know the difference between right and wrong…we all do.
if your voice tells you to jump off a cliff…do you do it…no…because you are not an idiot.
a schizophrenic…a mentaly ill person thought he was jesus and flew from a second story window…
he ’ flew ’ for …a milli-second…the rest was falling rapidly…an idiot.
i have been told to kill people…to torture people…etc…
did i do it, no…because i am not an idiot.
SzAdmin is right seek medical help.
or ring a helpline if you feel desperate.
know someone cares :heart:
take care :alien:

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You need to do what SzAdmin is recommending Dmitri.

You can’t go on living like this. I don’t know if you’re married but if you hurt someone what are you going to say to your wife? I’m sorry but I won’t be able to see you for the next twenty years? Your kids? Sorry son, I’m going to miss not one, but all of your baseball games. What about your parents? I love you Mom and Dad and I know you tried to do what was best. Please judge my heart and not my actions?

What about the family of the person you kill? What would you say to their spouse, children, and parents?

If the voices are trying to compel you to kill someone else it isn’t just your life in the balance anymore. It’s theirs too. Do you really have the right to deprive them of seeing their children grow up?

It might not be easy to get help but imagine going through all of this… while in jail. That could happen if you don’t go get help. That could happen if you let the voices win.

Thats what im afraid of, when they take control.
Obviously yes, but will they understand what i’ve been trough? Kinda skeptical,

They said nothing is perfect, so as jail, human makes mistake.
They always said let the beast go, let yourself become the werewolf. You are stronger than what you knew all along you just need to let the inner beast do the job. Everytime I got pissed to someone.
I have this vivid imagination where I became entirely different me. Where I kill everyone who pissed me off, at night, in a dark quiet alley, I can hear them screaming as I ripped their neck, turn everything inside out.
I wanted to seek help but, I my mind is kinda skeptical about the doctors