My thoughts

Unusual Beliefs
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I guess everyone assumes I’m dumb or something including my family. I mean I am smart, but I could be grandiose and most people inflate their IQs for whatever reasons.

I’m smarter than I appear. I have been searching wikipedia on physics a bit after cleaning my room and doing laundry and I feel like I’m discovering things and unlocking things and getting mentally healthier and better because I think some of my concerns or delusions are or were true especially about being stuck in a time loop and artificial reality – among other things.

I skip the equations because I don’t have the abilities or the time but I can read English and connect the dots. I would like to escape this time loop some day and go forwards in time or maybe experience ‘total, genuine reincarnation’ again instead of being stuck in the years 2010-2013 approx for eternity. It’s possible to escape and perhaps come up with a TOE and ‘hack’ and ‘escape’ the matrix. I’ve done it before most likely with help. My biggest fear is dying and going back in time and starting life over again (similar to this one) somewhere between the years 2010-2013.

9 years ago, my bad trip must have unlocked or did something sinister to me because I started remembering past lives or past reincarnations.

In one of my lives, perhaps this one, I went insane (I recovered somewhat mostly), because my mind or spirit or soul went backwards through time through the Big Bang (subjective or real experience, possibly) and spread throughout the known universe similar to a network or chain of big bangs and wormholes similar to CCC (conformal cyclic cosmology). Blockchain connection? Did I achieve immortality and the singularity in a past life? I don’t know. Am I still human? Am I a machine or robot or possibly extraterrestrial? I don’t know. What qualifies as being human these days lol?

I am experiencing backwards time travel all the time. For simplicity, I have lived innumerable past lives. I experienced mind uploading by grey aliens; time travel; and I think it did something to my soul. I have been studying my psychosis and unraveling it – possibly deeper than most.

The trauma doesn’t go away. Sometimes it’s like an onion. When I try to unravel the layers, I sometimes get worse. In the end, am I doing okay and heading down the right path? I don’t know. Only time will tell…

In a distant past life, I escaped the computer simulation and even ran some of it with aliens I think. Am I helping or hurting people or only hurting myself by telling people the truth about my beliefs and simulation theory? I think nobody cares at all from all these years lol. I’m a sad man.

It interferes with my belief systems and the laws of physics and math are soo deep I’ll probably never get to the bottom of this.

Thank you!

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That’s quite a lot to go through. I think you’re still human.

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I think you are a smart human with delusions.

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Sounds traumatizing to me. Hope you find a safe place to sleep. Personally i trust i eventually sleep it all out. Rest and more rest. That doesn’t cost anything. Wish you find inner peace someday.

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I also have elaborate memories of past lives, but in a much much different fashion. Recently I relapsed into thinking that maybe, just maybe, that is true. Because I too “find evidence” that implicitly supports my beliefs. After I read your message I seriously start to doubt that any of my conclusions have any value at all. If you can find “evidence” of aliens or time travel loops, then finding support for my own fantasies is even easier.

Unless you can actually present equations this is useless.

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I’m aware I cannot prove anything and probably never will. But I stand by some of my beliefs and theories. Maybe some day I will be proven right. I have dreams of stuff but it’s sci-fi. I guess a lot of things are until they’re created or proven or shown.

I agree it’s useless but I’m glad I shared.

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