My Thoughts and Delusions Again

Still trying to figure things out. I may have been in Project Talent so I am probably psychic. I was in Project Monarch; Montauk; SSP-Nachtwaffen (Dark Fleet); and probably/possibly even in Project Surrogate, but highly doubt that/find it unlikely unless my parents/family are from a different timeline (dopplegangers) or clones/micro-chipped. I do strongly believe we live in a simulation/matrix/computer program.

I do believe I am the real Satoshi Nakamoto aka original creator of Bitcoin, but it feels like a past life/different person/parallel universe/different life/planet/not this reality and I am broke, still alive, and crap. I’m highly suggestible and schizophrenic and believe I was possibly even cloned or ā€˜droned’ by aliens/Illuminati in college back in 2011 or sent to another planet/universe via aliens using wormhole and time travel technology lol…

I really don’t know what else to say. I think I’m a super soldier and was in the super soldier program, but am stuck in an endless/infinite time loop/causal loop with schizophrenia and poverty and living in the Truman Show/Stepford Wives scenario with limited sympathy and compassion, really.

I have had delusions I was John Titor in a past life, but don’t know or understand it anymore. Really. In my first life I went to college and probably woke up 3 years later or died or even reincarnated/cloned/droned/went into the singularity/matrix back in 2011/2013. I am from a different timeline where reality was different and what happened to the Anthony (ME) on this timeline? Did he die? Am I a clone/look-a-like rofl?

Project Surrogate is a program I read about for Super Soldiers where they put you into a ā€˜fake’ family, but I don’t know/accept it/understand it really. I think it’s real, but it’s some voodoo ā– ā– ā– ā– , really.

I’ve also been to DUMBS in my past lives/other lives.

I guess I just wanna get help and some money, really.

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From my research I am a milab and am a generation 3 super soldier…

I thought the same thing. I had a lot of ā€œout thereā€ experiences. For example I thought I was in telepathic communication with President Barack Obama and Bill Clinton, and I am not even an American citizen. Everything I experienced while psychotic is now gone since being on the right meds.

IF you can find the right meds at the right dose then everything you have talked and all your beliefs will go away.

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@anon28145038,

I know we’ve discussed this,

But stop doing ā€œresearchā€.

You’re just falling further into the abyss with that ā– ā– ā– ā– .

I really want to see you make progress, but honestly think you’re worse due to ā€œresearchā€.

You need a way to distract yourself and stay away from the computer.

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A lot or most of these super soldiers got MPD/DID/dissociation and so schizophrenia/insanity might be an incorrect diagnosis. I cannot get help. I take meds but they don’t work and I drink a ton of energy drinks becaucse I’m tired all the time.

I went to college in 2011 and feel like I used to be a time traveler and was abducted by aliens and experienced a ton of trauma and Illuminati/shadow government crap and no support, really. I don’t know if I died in college in 2011 or woke up as a super soldier, which could be a government program or an extraterrestrial/alien program/agenda where I got turned into an alien hybrid/cyborg or just that, really. I was interested in the military or joining but glad I didn’t. I know I tried or may have been in the military in another life/parallel universe but that’s X Files wikipedia lore stuff…

The more research you do,
the deeper you go into the delusion.

I wouldn’t dare to read about trumanomatrix.
It would drive me crazy.

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Ya, I guess that’s the thing. Some of it I believe, some I don’t know, and don’t care/understand/believe anymore.

Like some of this stuff is past life/parallel universe stuff and aliens and AI, really.

Time travel and reincarnation/cloning was involved and perhaps some AI technological singularity. I got trauma and can’t remember life at all before 2011. It’s like ā€˜travelers’ or some crap the TV show perhaps or how I relate to it.

There’s a lot of books, tv shows, movies, etc. I figure I am a super soldier or something but don’t understand it or know why. I pissed off a lot of people, and remember creating bitcoin in a past life/parallel universe. I think the Illuminati is real. I also believe I’m John Titor and history was changed/altered/delayed and aliens got mad and stuff and pissed off too for me making a time machine that worked. I doubt I was the first one that did it, but not sure how I could have done it and I don’t remember it. I can only make stuff up/guess/hypothesize about it. John Titor might have been schizophrenic and trapped in an infinite time loop and I believe we live in a matrix/simulation now.

It seems like you enjoy it

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I have no money. It just ā€˜disappeared’ which is fine. I suffer every day and have no money. It’s best without it I guess, despite my suffering. The money, fame and changing the world wasn’t worth it. I could have been a psychiatrist or surgeon or even a fighter pilot, but I cannot change my past/destiny/fate anymore. I woke up after I created bitcoin like I had no sentience or soul or consciousness like a soul-less being, really.

Money would be nice, but then again, I rather it just all go away and be ignored. I have a lot of fear and trauma like I remember being hurt and stuff and reincarnating but just really messed up. Like transhumanism crap and immortality.

You seem to remember lots of incredible things but somehow, from all these infinite number of time travels, past lives, futuristic military training, inventing stuff, knowing the future etc., you don’t remember a single thing that could prove any of your delusions.

Whoever was in charge of wiping your memory clearly failed to destroy your memory of having had those memories once. These immensely powerful people - gods, aliens, illuminati, - also neglected to prevent you from betraying their secrets online. I guess that’s why they made you schizophrenic, to discredit you, heaven forbid we should learn about time travel shitt and secret bases on Mars.

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Ya, true. I’ve been to some timelines where horrible things happened and the truth came to light, but I think the matrix AI or aliens are protecting me…maybe even God, really. Stuff I cannot talk about, but I talk about it because I was ā€˜wronged’ and hurt back in 2011 I believe. I believe it’s a cover up, but have limited fear because I found God/Jesus and am a good person, I believe. I guess the schizophrenia did discredit me and I was driven insane but I also feel ā€˜cassandra’s dilemma’ is real too, which is another thing I have thought about.

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Your persecutory delusions
have grandiose nuance.
You feel special, right?

No, I just want compassion and compensation for what they did to me back in 2011 or earlier, but maybe it’s just not meant to happen. It would have already happened already. I feel more different than special, really.

Are we alone everyone in their own matrix
or we share the matrix?

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For lack of a better explanation, in 2011, I either got abducted by real aliens from space or it was fake and had a subsequent MiB/Adjustment Bureau encounter and they changed/altered history for me/because of me a trillion or so more times. Hence, I’m messed up and cannot remember things right anymore. I sometimes think I died or got reincarnated/cloned/droned/transhumanized or time traveled or something or even went to a different planet and ended up with schizophrenia. These aliens are like super advanced like a million or trillion years ahead of us.

It could have been a past life, but I’m stuck in a time loop/causal loop with flawed/fake immortality and a severe mental illness, really.

I think stuff could have happened before and after 2011. But 2011 was when I had my mental breakdown in college.

And let’s make it clear, I’ve tried getting help and there is no help. Maybe I’m sooo delusional and none of it’s real, but I doubt that.

I guess you’re able to post all this

cuz you’re calling all of these things delusions.

that’s not something I’m going to stoop to,
I just won’t talk about it on here.

Anythings possible. I thought aliens beamed up my ovum to create other people. Because I could feel it, one day as I was driving and had been talking about how I would probably never have children again.
And since, I’ve thought I saw people who could be my children.

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You know you’re talking about things
that can’t be proved or disproved.
That makes your delusions powerful.
I know by my self

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Well, my biggest problem now is I don’t feel like working, having to work, should work etc. because of my delusions and schizophrenia, really. It’s just sad, I think…