I have been keeping myself from going insane by ganging with the norms. lol but I have to work at it to keep hidden but its hard & and its getting HARDER so Im seeking more help to keep from going to visit da hos my backround landscape changes daily so Im alway hiding what I can lol
they try to tell me what to do or what emotion to play out in there rule as I keep conform IM TRYING TO HAVE A SOMEWHAT NORMAL RELATIONSHIP YEAH BUT I keep messing up wont be long before Im alone in my madness she seeâs the way I handle things keep me keeping
@Marksmaddness I donât know if this will help at all or if itâll do anything but one of the ways I keep my voices and hallucinations in check is I blast music through headphones if Iâm in a car or bus and I force myself to think of the fake memories they tell me I have. Or before, I would force myself to live through their memories and it would help cause they would fly by as if Iâm seeing them outside the window. It was also kind of like using up a lot of energy so I would be on low energy all day instead of trying to space out all this energy throughout the day. Doesnât make much sense but itâs how I think about it.
@Marksmaddness I know whatâs it like to try and keep the crazy from touching those in your life, but maybe you should tell your girl about it. Just start off with asking her if she can do something to help, you donât have to tell her what youâre going through, you can call them headaches or pains but see how she reacts. My boyfriend helps me so much once he found out because he gets me out of stressful situations and you wonât know how sheâll react until she knows.
I hangout with people who donât have mental illnesses too but those closest to me usually are affected by something, it helps you know? It doesnât have to be those with sz either, two of my best friends have depression and one of them has bipolar disorder. Other people with a mental struggle can help you just survive another day, trust me.
Music helps but I have an unlimited supply of energy Im very hyper pills dont work anymore Im either up or down lol
My girl knows & she helps sometimes but I have to find younger girls legal lol to keep up with my hyper madness being full of energy all the time keeps me away from girls my age lol
I will stand like the norm till the madness takes over then I hide in my mind keeps me from seeing the turth in these eyes of madness
I dont have any friends like me
there all norms
Im lost in the way to act talk look and appear to others
Trying to blend and doing it for so long I think contributed to my last major break downâŚits stressful to keep up the facadeâŚbe carefulâŚfaking it till you make it doesnât seem possible without meds to assistâŚand lots say therapy helps tooâŚ
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@Marksmaddness what do you mean your energy keeps you away from girls your age? Have you tried exercising as a way of getting rid of the energy or using it to make something creative?
@flameoftherhine is right, if you try too hard to fit in with the ânormsâ then youâre gonna crack under pressure. It happened to me too, and it still does when Iâm with my boyfriend. He tells me to let people know cause he hates it when he canât comfort me then