Had a mini episode just now. For an hour or so. it was intense.
My mind goes down
then goes jumbled up
then blank.
I had the strong urge to cut. Pinched my arm and banged it. Aaaaaah it hurt. Lay on floor in agony and dead at same time. Wrote gibberish in journal. Couldn’t get up - catatonic/paralysed till it passed.
Now I’m slightly better, got up spoke to my dear husband and want to take a hot shower and pray and then resume reading my novel.
What the hell are these mindstorms? Is it temporary insanity? Transient psychosis? Or what?
This isn’t psychosis. This is what I have to deal with 24/7. It’s like an orchestra in my mind. Impossible to think coherently inside because there’s too much going on.
From what my doctors tell me it’s just dissociation. Do you also hear people talking noise in your head too and cutting your main thoughts off? This is most likely dissociation.
I’m sorry you experienced such a terrible thing. If this is not like your usual symptoms maybe you should have yourself checked out to rule out the possibility of a transient ischemic attack (mini stroke). I hope things improve for you Saadiqah.
It’s just gargled noises and random talking. It sounds similar to a radio station with static that sort of picks up a near by station. It’s not real obviously but it’s annoying and often causes me to lose my train of thought.
That happens to me too. Sometimes there is clear talking and other times there is random noise. You say it is not psychosis. It makes me think I should not take my meds. I always think I should not take my meds though. It’s a struggle for me.
From what I’ve read it’s dissociation, because when I experience this it’s usually hard for me to focus on reality. It’s like I can’t tune out the noises in my head. On reddit I posted about this and someone said it was not psychosis at all.
However, do not stop taking your meds just because you experience this. Your doctor knows best and if you have been diagnosed with SZ you are probably being treated right.
Im not SZ. I’ve never received a diagnosis, hallucinated or had delusions really. I experience some symptoms like it but I’ve been diagnosed with Dissociative identity, OCD, panic disorder, severe anxiety, and Bipolar.
Don’t discontinue your meds unless you talk to the doctorm
They said I have delusions and occasionally mild hallucinations. I have this debate in me about my meds. Because my mom said if I stop taking my meds I will go crazy and she will make me go to the hospital. But I feel like I don’t need them and they are part of a plot to keep me from the truth.
I am on an AP, mood stabilizer, and antidepressant. I don’t think the first thing you said is always true. My mom told me my biggest problem is delusions. It’s hard to believe that.
Im not comparing bipolar to schizophrenia. I am simply talking to people who have similar experiences to me. I have disorganized thinking, mood swings, and a boat load of other stuff. I’ve been dissociated before and I can barely function in life at the moment. I’m not trying to talk down to anyone. All I was doing was explaining that I have similar experiences to theCircleOfFifths.
Also, I didn’t mean schizophrenia symptoms are easier than bipolar ones. I wrote in schizoaffective often times the bipolar symptoms outweigh the schizophrenic symptoms. This is documented in psychiatry. Obviously nobody is the same though.