I experienced another shock in psychosis. Sort of true, sort of fantasy. I just want to knock myself out, but what is real ? Its hopeless, i am in despair. It’s not my fault, cause I keep living I do mistakes, but i do right stuff as well. In 2045 i would be around 75 years old.
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We all make mistakes. But don’t quit. Gotta keep going even if you made a big blunder just a second ago. Gotta try to learn from our mistakes. Put in some tweaks to avoid the same problem in the future. Try to change the mindset as well.
I hope you get out of psychosis though, or that you are able to “forget” what you experience. You never really forget…but the trick is to just file it under “not useful” in your brain and try to never think about it. I noticed a lot of people get stuck after psychosis because they can’t let the weird experiences go, trying to figure stuff out. Just got to forget about it. It doesen’t help you in the present, it is holding you back. People forget to really live their lives. Keep your mind busy doing other things.
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When i was working I had responsibility to focus on my paid job. I feel like working as a freelance writer here. That is my job at the moment. As long i don’t get suspended i do a good job.
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Yeah, I guess this corona situation is making things a bit too much monotoneus for most peoples liking. It won’t take much to make 2021 better in those regards. Looking forward to hopefully getting back to normal.
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I don’t work a regular job for 10 years, but i helped building a house and done some volunteer community work. We are corona free in western Australia again, so far. I hope i am not delusional but i think i can get a cleaning job. Every morning 2 to 3 hours, cause I lack confidence I don’t ask for the job. I guess the employer gets financial government help to employ me cause I got special needs. But can’t get this information cause i am a certified ding dong.
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Good to hear you got some positives going for you. I’m sure you can do the job, go for it. Worst case scenario it doesen’t work out, then you just have to take a timeout and try again.
I am working part time in a shop. I think it does me a lot of good to get out of the house and do something and see some people. Cleaning job sounds allright too.
I have something similar going on, like I’m looking for a new part time job, and the goverment will pay a good portion of the sallary so that the employer is more likely to take a chance on me.
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I am a good worker, i don’t wonder off the job and do my stuff. I am reliably, responsible and clean. I always call in when i can’t make it. That job would give me structure in my life and save my budget. Here we go, i just work for the tabbaco but i need it.
I would be 55. I wonder if they will have a treatment for my severe treatment resistant negative symptoms by then. I guess by then I would be too old to enjoy life which sucks! I didn’t have time to live my life as I had sz symptoms since 15y.o. and was diagnosed at 20 with sz after 2 suicide attempts.
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I always wanted to get an university degree. With 50 years old i can’t study anymore. All the psychotic episodes add up to a messy headjumble. These days i am into lifephilosophies from people living on low income and have to pass time. I can’t watch tv cause its to intense. I am struggling with my addictions cause they give me emotional comfort. I am stressed cause i can’t effort tabbaco anymore which helped me functioning with sz. I know without that crutch i selfneglect, don’t talk or listen. I am scared to end in company with control freaks legally torching me to do tricks for their entertainment. I don’t know, maybe i am just deluded. I can’t live with or without tabbaco, by the time we got rehabs for tabbaco addiction another 10 years pass.
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